The Indwelling Spirit of God
The Indwelling Spirit
What is our relationship with it?
From the Urantia Book we can gain some insight into the Indwelling Spirit, a spirit fragment that comes from God and indwells our higher mind. It arrives from Paradise when our mind is fully up and running around six years old, and once in our mind becomes, from what I understand, able to help us to live the dictates of our soul. One of the things about the Indwelling Spirit that I think is important to understand is that God, our Mother and Father, send an actual part of Their Spirit to us, to each of us, so God is literally with us, through Their spirit that indwells us, all the time. So we do have what is called an ‘inner god’ as we aspire to ascend in truth and become at-one with the ‘outer God’ in Paradise. And I feel it’s reasonable to conclude that God has created us so They can experience all life through us via Their Indwelling Spirits. So God not only knows us and is with us through our existential souls, but also right in every breath we breathe, experientially with us through our Indwelling Spirits. So we are a lot closer to God than we think, as God is right with us all the time. Another interesting thing about the indwelling spirit is that it’s pre-personal, which means, it doesn’t have its own unique personality. And so what we give it, is our personality. We are in a way personalising this spirit part of God, as it is helping us to express fully and truly our souls personality. So God is very personally getting to know us, even to the point of Their indwelling spirits becoming as we are - as our personality is; and as this happens, so too we are slowly getting to know God through the truth of our experiences. Since Mary Magdalene and Jesus came everyone automatically gets an indwelling spirit, and yet for the most part, most people are unaware that such a spirit fragment of God is within them. Some people have sensed it, have perceived it, and do even try to make contact with this inner god part of themselves, even to the point of believing that our spiritual growth is up and in through the mind, so as to attain at-oneness with God of Mind. So they are more intent on striving to become god through and with their mind, trying to be what they feel is the higher part of themselves, than they are to become at-one with God on Paradise, which is only achievable through looking to ones feelings for their truth and evolving ones soul in truth to the Home of God in the Highest Heaven. People who look to the more Eastern or New Age spiritual approach believe the mind is the key to it all, because of mistaking the presence of the indwelling spirit with God Him and Herself. But it’s the wrong way to go, ultimately leading the individual to believing they are god, when they are not God. And this is in fact the most evil one can become, to believe you are god, rather than always feeling and living the truth that you are a child of God; and being that child, can strive to become as perfect and true as the Mother and Father are, and at-one with Them in such perfection, but always still remaining a true child of God, just as Jesus always said he was. He said he was not God, and so is not to be worshipped as God, and he will forevermore be only a child of loving Heavenly Parents. When we attain a Celestial level of truth, which can only happen upon partaking the Divine Love, and then with our soul divine and perfect to that degree, our indwelling spirit is able to fully unite with us - with our soul, so it will be with us forevermore. Up until we achieve what the Urantia Book calls fusion with our indwelling spirit, it is possible that a person or mansion world spirit might have different indwelling spirits from time to time, each spirit helping the individual to progress in their life to a certain point before giving over to the help of another. But once soul-fusion with your indwelling spirit happens, which can ONLY happen once you have healed yourself of your negative state and fully embraced the Divine Love, then you are assured immortality of the soul, because you will always have your spirit of God personally bonded to you. It being the first stage of you and God becoming truly - and on the feelings level, and not just in the mind - at-one with God. It’s our first stage of truly becoming God-knowing. So when fusion takes place, then the indwelling spirit connects with us on all levels and not just in the higher mind, so giving us an all-pervading feeling of God being with us and we being with God. And so if you desire to seek eternal union with your unique spirit part of God, then you’ll have to transform your soul into becoming divine, this being achieved through the partaking of the Divine Love. The indwelling spirit is divine, and we are not, we have to become divine should we want to get to know God as personally as we can, and be as perfect as God is. And only when we have received the amount of Divine Love and grown in truth equivalent to a divine soul of the Celestial level, can and so will, our indwelling spirit fuse with our soul. And without soul-fusion; without doing your healing and healing your evilness; without transforming your soul with the Divine Love into becoming divine, you will only remain limited to the mansion worlds of natural love, never being able to move beyond them into the universe proper, and then free to ascend right the way through Creation to your one day personally meeting your Soul Mother and Father. So there is quite an incentive to want to do these things. People can speak with, mind to mind, their indwelling spirit. The quite still and often said to be ‘small and quiet’ inner voice of God that you can reach out to and make contact with, or which might seemingly of its own accord speak to you as God talking to you, is your communicating with your indwelling spirit. And it’s through our mind we can speak to God - via our indwelling spirit. It will be for all intents and purposes, and how you experience it, God speaking directly to you. And it’s a great experience. The Mother and Father can also speak to us via our soul and on a deeper perceptional level as we advance our soul in truth and divinity through receiving Their Divine Love, and all of that intensifying greatly once we’ve healed ourselves of our anti God state and fused with our indwelling spirit, but for the time being, it will be mostly mind to mind that one will talk with God. And like all things, some people will want to speak to the Mother and Father via their indwelling Spirit, other people it won’t be so important, they being content in knowing they are with the Mother and Father who love Them and that they are communicating with Them in their own unspoken but heartfelt way. It can also be a great trap if you find it easy to speak with your indwelling spirit, to speak with God. Because you can heavily rely on what God says to you, being too much in your mind, too much attached to the intellectual side of things, instead of looking to your feelings to guide you in truth. And it can be a great way to use God to help you further deny many of your bad feelings, thereby actually advancing your negative condition and evilness when you believe you are moving ahead spiritually because you are speaking easily with God and God is telling you all these great things. And if you are sincerely wanting to do your healing, sure, you can still talk to God, but whilst always keeping also focused on accepting and expressing and seeking the truth of your feelings. And if one does this, heals oneself of ones negative state, then ones relationship with ones inner and outer God will change all for the better reflecting ones advance in truth. I used to look to my indwelling spirit all the time, firing questions about everything to it and it responding to me, and I deluded myself that I was growing in truth, when all I was doing was expanding my mind, filling it with a whole lot of stuff that really was doing nothing for my souls development - my growth of truth. And when I felt bad, quick Father and Mother, why am I feeling bad - intellectualising it; and can you take the bad feeling away, and They would say, you’re feeling bad because of... but it was all in my head, and all keeping me away from my feelings. So I’ve had to understand that it’s better if I just allow myself to feel as shit as I do, all the time speaking to Marion about how bad I feel, whilst I long for and seek the truth of my bad feelings. And occasionally I chat with my indwelling spirit but now understanding my feelings come first. Our indwelling spirits orchestrate a smooth union with our soul and personality; which means, when our soul desires we experience a certain experience, and that experience might require help from our angelic guardians, so it’s our indwelling spirit that organises the angels to help fulfil the needs of our soul. I might for example need to uncover a deeper truth of myself, one that has been eluding me. My soul knows it is time for me to do so, so sets up my life experiences in Creation to happen, the experiences that will give me the feelings I need to express and seek the truth of that will take me into and connect with the truth my soul wants me to know - that I am to become of. And let’s say it involves my physical arm suddenly hurting, I lift it up and suddenly, agony, a feeling of wrenching happens in it, making me gasp and filling me with fear - what’s wrong with my arm? And the pain, such terrible pain, I feel like I’m going to faint. I try to express my agony to Marion, telling her how bad I feel, how scared I feel and what I fear will happen to me. And to bring all of this about, my indwelling spirit is orchestrating all that’s needed on the Creational side of things, and my angels suddenly inject an unseen light into my aura following the guidance of my indwelling spirit, and my arm wrenches and is filled with pain. Then as I’m expressing my pain I’m also longing to know what truth about myself these bad feelings are to show me. I long to God to help me see the truth of my pain. And when I have expressed the pain sufficiently, when I’ve emoted all my bad feelings, when I’ve said all my soul requires me to, even being helped along and inspired by my indwelling spirit, then I’m ready for the truth to be seen, to come up in me. And so light comes from my soul, my indwelling spirit takes it and makes into the truth, presenting it to me in such a way so that I understand what I am to see about myself or about mum and dad, about life, even about God. And suddenly a knowing rises up in me, I become conscious of this deeper truth, I make the connection with the pain from my arm with pain I felt when I fell over and hurt my arm when I was young, when I nearly broke it. And then more truth comes. I keep speaking all I’m seeing and feeling to Marion. And my indwelling spirit continues manifesting my souls leading - the truth God wants me to see, moving me even deeper and I feel really pissed off that in that experience when I was young, dad wasn’t looking after me as he should have been, that he wasn’t there for me, that he was off busy with something or someone else other than being right there with me paying attention to me. And had he been, had he truly loved me, he’d not have left me and I’d not have hurt myself. My hurt, my physical injury and pain really just being a manifestation of the emotional and spiritual pain that he was causing me by not loving me as truly and fully as I needed to be loved. And because I am wanting to grow in truth through the healing of my negative state, so my soul and indwelling spirit are helping me move that way. But before I wanted to heal myself, as I didn’t know about it or that I was evil and as fucked up as I am, I was still wanting to advance my minds control over my feelings, so still progress in my negative state and evilness, and so my soul and indwelling spirit worked to help me go further away from myself and God. The Urantia Book says our indwelling spirit adjusts our mind helping us to become more aware of God, helping us to strive to be with God, giving our indwelling spirit another name: thought adjusters, as often they act through our thoughts. And as I said above, if I want to live true to myself, so my indwelling spirit helps to adjust my mind by helping me keep focused on my feelings, and helping me to uncover truth they are to help me see, which is all helping me to move toward understanding myself more - my own soul. And then as I come to know myself, so too am I coming to know God. And all the way along as I grow in truth, I long to be true to my feelings, knowing they are my way to God. That for me to ascend to Paradise and to literally be with my true Mother and Father I have to look to my feelings and not to my mind. And as I express my feelings, all of them, and the truth comes, then once again my indwelling spirit helps me to understand the mental side of my feelings, so I can put into the right context the picture that’s evolving in me concerning my early relationships, the ones that fucked me up. And along the way concerning the mental side, should I need help from Verna my nature spirit friend, Mary and Jesus, any other Celestial and universal spirits I speak with, my angels, and even from my indwelling spirit (who I call Bob) itself, then Bob orchestrates the input from such outside sources all helping me gain the mental understanding I need. As I’ve grown in truth through the ongoing healing of myself, so my relationship with Bob has changed. It’s become more personal. As I said, I don’t speak as much to him as I used to, because I want to stay more focused on my feelings so I can keep working on myself, but over the years I’ve developed a great love and fondness for him. And I couldn’t be more grateful to him for all he’s done for me, just so much, and all the time, day and night, he creating my dreams and manifesting them so perfectly as to stimulate so many good and bad feelings for me to express when I’ve woken up. He’s helped me every step of the way in every bit of truth that’s come up in me, and without him I’d never have been able to do anything. So I thank you Bob with all my heart, not that that’s much, it still being so unloving and all caught up in its anti love ways. But with the small amount of love I can give and feel, thank you Bob and I love you. ‘You are most welcome James, it’s my pleasure, I’m enjoying every moment with you, and indeed, are looking forward to all our future moments together.’ ‘Now Bob, on a serious note... my healing, when am I going to finish it?’ ‘Can’t tell you old son.’ ‘Oh god Bob, you’re no bloody good, why not? You’re God, for all intents and purposes, so...’ ‘No can do. I’d be denying you the joy of all your bad feelings, and I don’t want to do that, that’s not what a loving God would do. And I want you to keep feeling as bad as you can, you’ve still got lots more truth to uncover about how unloved you were during your early life. And, as you know old chap, that’s what’s important, not knowing when your healing is going to finish.’ ‘Yeah well it’s all right for you Bob, you’re not the one who feels like shit every day. And lately Bob, as you well know, god I have felt bad, I’ve not felt this bad in my healing.’ ‘I know James, but it’s a very important time for you, it’s marking your transition from your negative state to a positive one. And I know it’s very hard, painful and extremely testing and trying, but it has to be, for as you are feeling, it’s exactly how you felt so often during your forming years. And you’ve got to feel and see and accept the whole truth of it all, of all that happened to you and all how it made you feel, and all how you became as a result of it, all of which was anti you. So keep going, just keep allowing yourself to feel as bad as you feel and keep speaking about all you feel to Marion - and keep longing for the truth.’ ‘All right, and it’s not as if I can do anything else anyway. I feel so bad, I am just one bad feeling all the time, and I can’t even define it - I FEEL BAD! But as you said, I am also feeling this is how I felt so much when I was young, I can remember, I can see myself and feel myself back then, so I know it’s true - it is me. It is how I am.’ ‘Yes, it’s the truth of you, which is what it’s all about - the truth through your feelings.’ ‘Thank Bob, I’ll speak to you soon.’ ‘Over and out - any time James, I’ll be here, I ain’t going anywhere.’ |
Our indwelling spirits never take over, God never takes over, they never interfere with our minds. God and our indwelling spirits never say do this and do that, don’t do that, go here, go there, don’t go there - that’s what our parents said to us. And if God or our indwelling spirits do give us such instructions, then they are being our parents with the intention of stimulating what should be bad feelings, all so we can use them to uncover more truth about our unloving relationship with our parents.
God has put us in evil and made us be it, God wants us to experience it. And so our indwelling spirit will see to it that we do. And when we’ve had enough of it, and so when our Mother and Father want us to heal ourselves of our negative state through our ongoing bad feeling acceptance, then our indwelling spirit will helps us do that, helping to orientate our inner selves that way.
Our indwelling spirits are always striving to affect deep spiritual changes with us, which if we long to live true to ourselves through our feelings, will gradually come to light. The truth surfaces mysteriously from within us and our consciousness changes in line with it. Then our mind also grows in understanding. But it can all only happen as we look to our feelings as are our real guide, and not our thinking mind.
If you want to speak directly with God via your indwelling spirit but can’t do it, then possibly it’s not for you to do. And your not being able to do what you want to do should make you feel bad. So if you’re wanting to live true to yourself and God, and do your healing, then you can use those bad feelings to help you uncover more truth of yourself. So you express them to your friend or partner whilst longing for the truth. And when it comes, it might in time, or possibly even immediately, remove what might be blocking or stopping you from directly speaking with God. Or it might not. And in that case, you will still move closer to accepting that it’s not your way to speak directly with God. And in time as you express all your bad feelings about not being able to, uncovering the truth of them, you’ll feel better and better about not speaking directly with God. And will feel that you have your own unique and personal way of knowing God is with you and is speaking to you, only just not directly through your mind using words. And to have God communicate with you through your feelings is far more fulfilling that just having a chat through your mind with God.
And so long to be at-one with God; and long to perfect as God is; and long to live true; and long to God for Their Divine Love; and long for the TRUTH; and long to heal yourself of your evilness, of your negative state, then you’ll move along advancing your soul, and all God wants you to know about yourself, life and Themselves; will come to you... all in your own good time, and all in the way that’s just right, true and perfect for you. And it will be your own unique way, your way for you to treasure for the rest of eternity, because you’ll be living it.
The indwelling spirit, God, and other spirits can give you a bum steer, they can lead you astray, because they will always being working with you in compliance with your negative state, that is, until you’ve healed it. So if you get mental information from them, it might not all be correct and true, it might be tainted with untruth, all in keeping with how untrue you are. So a lot of what you might read from other people who talk with spirits and God (and even possibly from myself as I am not yet fully healed), might be wrong, or even correct, but put in such a way as to mislead you, or just not fully explain everything allowing your mind to make certain incorrect assumptions and so leading yourself further astray. And so the only way you can know if anything is right and true and correct is by going with your feelings - what you feel about it. However whilst you’re untrue, this too can be a bit hairy because how can you be sure your feelings are also not tarnished by your controlling mind. And so once again it all comes down to your feelings, to keep accepting, expressing and seeking the truth of them. And gradually you will change, gradually the truth will come up in you, and in time you will see what is right and where you might have gone wrong, and even why God might have led you up the garden path a bit.
So always look to your feelings whilst trying to leave you mind out of it as much as possible. But that’s far easier said than done. Bob has led me all over the place, telling me all sorts of things, some true, some not, some things about the future for me that have come true, others not. And in the early years of my healing I was looking to Bod for guidance, really to be led along, but he kept leading me to brick walls. And finally I started to get it, and I’m still getting it, that he is not there to tell me about the future and what’s going to happen to me, or to tell me what I am to do so as to live God’s will. No, he is there to help me go into my feelings, to help me to help myself to stop denying my bad ones, to face them all, and to express them, ‘be’ them, and look to them to show me what they want me to see about myself, my life and God. And they do, and slowly I’m seeing. And now I know for me to live God’s will, is achieved simply by living true to my feelings; my true feelings, and not the ones influenced by my mind, are God’s will - the will of my soul. And the right and true way for me to go in life.
God is right with us in our evilness, in our pain, our loneliness, our fear, despair, misery, guilt, envy and anger. God is with is in very good and bad feeling. And our indwelling spirits are testament to the fact. God feels what we feel, God knows what we think. And if that’s true, well then God must be the biggest masochist because why subject us, and so Himself, so much pain. There must be more to our being evil and why God wants us to be so, than we understand. And as I understand nothing, so surely there must be more?
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I long to be true
I long to live true to my feelings
I long for the truth of my feelings
I long for the truth God wants me to see
I long for God’s Divine Love
I long to God for Their Love
I long for the Truth
I long to feel good, happy and loved
I long to be healed of my evilness
I long to never feel bad again!
I long to be able to fully and truly express myself and so have true relationships
I long to feel happy and loved
I long to be with my soul-mate
I long to be perfect just like God is
I long to be true to myself, true to my feelings
I long to be true
I long to live true to my feelings
I long for the truth of my feelings
I long for the truth God wants me to see
I long for God’s Divine Love
I long to God for Their Love
I long for the Truth
I long to feel good, happy and loved
I long to be healed of my evilness
I long to never feel bad again!
I long to be able to fully and truly express myself and so have true relationships
I long to feel happy and loved
I long to be with my soul-mate
I long to be perfect just like God is
I long to be true to myself, true to my feelings
I long to be true