It’s all about:
Finding the truth of yourself,
and all through your feelings.
The Truth of Divine Love
Finding the truth of yourself,
and all through your feelings.
The Truth of Divine Love
Sincerely wanting to live true - to yourself.
If you sincerely want to live true, your Indwelling Spirit together with your soul will make things difficult for you, all to make you feel bad; all so you can express such bad feelings to uncover the truth of them. The truth you are denying yourself.
If you partake of the Divine Love and sincerely long to be true - the truth of yourself, things should make you feel increasingly bad all so you can move deeper into expressing your childhood repression. Things should get worse for you, or not even so much as worse, but simply make you feel bad and so seem to get worse. Often things are bad and even very bad, but we do so many things to dismiss such bad feelings we delude ourselves that things are okay. So when you start to acknowledge your feelings and seek their truth having partaken of the Divine Love, then you’ll start facing the true reality of what you are feeling, often feeling very bad indeed. What should NOT happen is you feel better about your life and yourself in life with things working for you so you can carry on in your evilness using the Divine Love to augment it. Were the Divine Love to magically remove all your sins and errors like many people believe it will through ardent prayer for it, then you’d fail to uncover the truth of yourself, that truth being what happened truly between you and your parents during your forming years.
If you are longing for the whole truth of yourself, then that includes the WHOLE truth from your first moment of conception. It’s crucial that you see the whole truth of your relationship between your parents, grandparents, if they were influential in your early life, and anyone else who was. You have to first come to terms with these initial relationships understanding how they’ve prevented you from fully and truly expressing yourself - your whole personality, this being your ascent through the levels of truth equal to that of the Divine Love mansion worlds. If you do want to uncover and live the truth, but refuse to look into the whole truth of these early relationships by using your feelings to see, then you’re never going to uncover such truth. Simply, we all have to find out - find the truth of, whether or not we were fully and truly loved by our people, and if not, what we feel about that and how it’s negatively or unlovingly influenced us. How not being loved has made you become untrue, and so evil.
So if what you do, if what spiritual practices you do, DON’T make you feel bad, then they are only leading you further astray, further from yourself, deeper into your self and truth denial. If they do make you feel bad, then like all bad feelings you can truly help yourself by seeking to uncover the truth of why you’re feeling bad by accepting, fully honouring and expressing these feelings.
Facts or Truth.
So many people say truth, when they mean facts. Facts of course being true, but in the context of ones spiritual growth and growing in truth, the truth is what you feel, all the other stuff of the mind are facts. The truth is not what you believe or think to be right or wrong, it is what is REALLY true, that being based on your TRUE feelings, and not feelings arising from erroneous belief. Facts are there, we can find them out with our minds. Truth comes to us through your feelings from our feeling-experiences. We can understand truth as fact, however it’s when you FEEL the truth is when you know it to be true.
Many things talk about realising you have the truth within yourself, encouraging you to stop looking outside and look within. That all we are, is all we need to be to discover who we really are, all of which of course is true. So by trusting our inner wisdom (all the usual New Age stuff) we can access our inner knowing. And all we need do is listen to that inner guidance we all have and learn how to trust it. And it’s all very well, but what it doesn’t say is that the only real way to access our inner guidance and wisdom if through our feelings, and our bad ones at that. We’ve got to bring all the yuk out of us so we can unblock all our inner channels so we can know what to do through our feelings.
Beware the dangers of getting caught up in knowledge. Knowledge so far as helping you spiritually progress will only serve to keep you bound up in your negative mental state of mind and will. Ascension of truth is very different to transcending with knowledge, with the former focusing heavily and mostly on ones feelings, the latter on ones mind alone. We’re already too fucked up with our minds stuffed full of shit from our parents, to then go on stuffing ever increasing amounts into our heads in the hope of it doing us some good. The only ‘good’ it does is add yet more self-denying layers, of what often is mostly rubbish and nothing to do with any truth, to ones already self-deluded mind.
There’s actually nothing to learn, it’s all already within you. We only have to reveal it to ourselves through our feelings, our understanding and knowing about things naturally unfolding as we go. It’s not about learning truths and then trying to live them, it’s living true to your feelings, growing in truth, and allow the truth of yourself at any given moment freedom of expression.
Use your mind to progress up through the mind mansion worlds; your feelings, to move through to and ascend the Divine Love worlds.
What is life all about: We are supposed to be evil, then wake up and see the truth of how evil we are, then heal ourselves of it. And then after that, we’re to keep living being true, good and of pure heart - always living true to our feelings, so always living true to ourselves and true to God.
We can only be born again or born anew through our feelings, and not actually by using our minds to change our evilness or negative state into being something not evil and positive. And we can only be ‘born again’ by uncovering the truth of our evilness, thereby becoming our true selves we’ve been keeping suppressed. We become born anew in our feelings, in the truth of who we really are, not literally as a baby again.
We’re mistaking in believing we should be able to live life correctly, that being according to our evilness - having a career, good relationships, loving family. Even if doing these things feels good, it’s still not right, because we’re evil. So being a failure at such things and feeling rejected by the world is right, as you can’t cope with the evil. We’re deluded in thinking that we love one another, that our life is normal. If we live a normal successful life, it doesn’t matter, because it’s still all wrong. We have to stop and go the other way, out of our minds and into our feelings, all through the healing of our negative state and so the healing of our childhood repression.
Submitting to the leading of ones Indwelling Spirit, is doing your healing - it’s the only way for us to begin our ascension. Your indwelling spirit will guide you as you submit to and express and seek the truth of - all your bad feelings.
The soul is the real and true you, and the rest of yourself has the choice of living true to it or not. We live centred in our experiential personality, our focus on experience, so which way do we choose, for or against ourselves: honouring and accepting all we are, all we feel; or, denying ourselves much of what we feel.
Our existential soul guides our experiential personality expression through our feelings. If we deny such feelings then we’re not allowing our soul to guide us lovingly, so we live evilly and feel bad - unloved. If we choose or have such a choice made for us - as we all have - to deny our soul, then it will guide us down the path of darkness until we’re ready to choose otherwise.
Jesus says I’m not God, it’s not me being God who will save you. Long to God, They are your true Parents. It’s from God you’ll get all the love you didn’t get from your parents. And once having connected with God, then start to look to yourself. Doing your healing is loving yourself, so saving yourself.
We are to choose: the way of feeling denial and untrue, the way of evil, to follow the Devil; or, the way of Truth, the way of our soul, the way of Mary and Jesus, the way of God.
'Truth' from the mind verses truth from feelings.
With our minds we believe things. At best we can say we believe something to be true, but we can’t know it’s true until we’ve experienced it for ourselves. And when we experience something being able to say we know one hundred percent that is true, then what we’re really saying is we know it’s true with our feelings - we feel it’s true. And when we feel something to be true, there is no arguing against it, it’s more substantial than a belief, it can’t be interfered with or changed, it’s a part of our reality - it’s simply: true. Beliefs, however, can be changed.
A lot of people say they believe in the Bible, and so it must be true. It’s true because they believe it’s true, but there’s a problem with that, because as it’s only a belief, which can be changed, it might not be true. We can change our beliefs all day long, but we can’t change our true feelings. But it’s not as simple as that either.
What if your feelings aren’t all they seem to be. What if your feelings are coming about as a result of what you believe. Or, saying it another way, what if your feelings are being influenced in some way by your beliefs. What if truly you feel bad about something that’s happened to you, however you don’t allow yourself to feel bad, and instead you feel good, all because your beliefs are telling you that you should feel good instead of bad. And what if you were able to see that the feelings you’re feeling are of themselves true, but they are being generated because of your beliefs, so are not truly what you would be feeling were your mind to stay out of it. What I mean is this.
Say you tripped over and felt bad, angry, hurt and upset, you also felt stupid. But then your mind takes over as it believes these are bad feelings to feel, so you say to yourself: no, I’m all right, I’m fine, there’s nothing wrong me, in fact I even feel good about it. What if you’re a child walking along with your parent and you trip over. You feel bad, and you start to cry. But your parent quickly comes to your aid, telling you you’re all right, there’s nothing to cry about, it doesn’t hurt. And as your parent knows all and you don’t want to feel hurt anymore, you quickly stop crying using your mind to believe what your parent is telling you, stopping yourself from feeling bad. And what if this pattern of behaviour then locks into place becoming part of you. So from then on, in each situation where a similar thing happens, you feel bad but quickly stop yourself from feeling that way, telling yourself you don’t feel bad and so using your mind to make yourself feel good instead. So from then on you live out of touch with the reality of what you’re actually going through. You have disconnected or disassociated a little from yourself. You are no longer able to trust your feelings. You might feel good in a situation but what’s to say that the underlying truth you’re not conscious of, is that you really feel bad. So what happens if all you believe to be true, turns out to be untrue. What if all the feelings you have about things are coming from a mind that is controlling you with erroneous beliefs. Confusing? It should be, and very disconcerting.
Adam and Eve partook of the Tree of Knowledge, which is they stopped living true to their feelings and started to rely too heavily on working out how to live with their minds. They were coerced away from their feelings, to disregard them, to use their minds instead, to work out what to do. They didn’t stay true to themselves, to their own feelings, and so true to each other - their relationship. They separated within themselves allowing their minds to take over from their feelings. In the end they were two people living together but not together in their feeling expression, both off separately in their own minds, just how we live. And so all they then tried to do using their minds to make amends for their Default, only made things worse. They didn’t just stop, do nothing, and strive to get back in touch with their true feelings.
As bizarre as it sounds, we really want to be perfectly evil, and we’re striving as hard as we can to achieve it. We want to be beyond reproach, which really means, to always be good in the eyes of our parents, all so they will give us the love we need from them, but which they are withholding. It’s perfection based on our parenting, all we absorbed through our early childhood, and not perfection based on the truth. We are striving to be perfect so we’re not punished. We’re trying to rise above being a bad boy or bad girl. We’re trying to prove to our parents that we are as they want us to be, which is really our own picture and not even that which our parents have. We live our picture in the hope they will love and accept us, but it never seems to be right, they still persist in being angry with us, so we have to keep amending our picture. As a child we try to gather up all the bits so we can do the right thing - be right, and good, but all in the eyes of our parents, society or what we’re told is required of us, and even demanded by, God. We all have the natural urge to be perfect. Even as perfect as God is. It’s just a pity that in our negative unaware states we’re trying to live misplaced perfection. We’re trying to perfect imperfection, that which is untrue, false and so evil. So of course we’re never going to achieve it.
We should be growing in truth every day, and we should feel we are. We should be having insights, revelations, understanding coming to us as we express our feelings longing to know the truth of ourselves. And whilst we’re in an evil condition, so it’s right that every day we should see more about that condition as we come to know ourselves. We should receive insights, revelation and understanding about why we’re imperfect, wrong, evil, negative, right the way along until we’ve healed it all.
We think we’re saving ourselves from evil and yet all we do is evil.