Briefly: how do you do your healing?
Briefly: how do you do your healing?
As we all live untrue to ourselves, so we’ve all got to at some time, be it here on Earth or in the mansion worlds in spirit, do our healing, and so become true. We all have to do our Feeling-Healing. And if we are longing for and receiving God’s Divine Love, then we are to do our Soul-Healing - which is inclusive of our Feeling-Healing.
By becoming true we are seeking to perfect our self-expression, all being done through our feelings. Breaking down the control our mind has over our feelings, looking to truly express all we feel.
1. Identify your bad feeling.
Some people always know how they are feeling. For other people who are more used to blocking out feelings, they might find it hard and need initial help to realise they are feeling bad. For example, you might not know you feel scared or angry, but your body language might show it. A friend can help you understand that you are feeling bad, or suggest that perhaps you should be. How are you feeling... do you feel angry... aren’t you feeling angry... in that situation I would be very angry. So the person can ‘try on’ the feeling their friend is suggesting they might be feeling, seeing if they make any connection with it.
2. Acknowledge you’re feeling bad.
First we have to understand we are refusing to feel a lot of our feelings, mostly bad ones. So we have to look objectively at ourselves to see how we are denying them. If you feel bad, for example you feel miserable, what do you do? Do you do anything to try and stop yourself feeling miserable? And what do you do? Do you for example try to cheer yourself up, take your mind off your misery. Do you go to a doctor looking for help to get rid of your miserable feelings. Do you go to a movie, out for dinner, by new clothes, have sex... Do you do anything to try and stop yourself feeling bad?
You have a headache - what do you do? Do you take pills to make it go away; do you lie down; do you just try and ignore it, just getting on with life.
You feel guilty - what do you do about the feeling? Do you do anything to try and make it go away. Do you use your mind to rationalise your bad feeling away, telling yourself it wasn’t your fault...
You feel angry - what do you do about feeling angry? Do you try to stop the thing or person who’s making you feel bad from continuing to make you angry. Do you fight back; do you vent your anger; do you try and rise above it.
3. Express your feelings.
When you’re feeling bad and you know what feeling/s you’re feeling, and have someone willing to listen to you, express, emote and speak about all you feel. Speak with the emotion of the feeling. If you feel angry, speak angrily as you express how you’re feeling. Speak about it all, and for as long as you feel the feeling. Imagine the feeling you’re feeling now is linked to deeper repressed feelings, ones you’ve denied and so are keeping buried and hidden within yourself. So all you’re expressing now is also all you felt back then but didn’t allow yourself to express. So it’s now all coming out.
4. Long for the truth of your feeling.
When you can, long for the truth of your feeling. Want to really know why you’re feeling that way - what is it, what’s really going on within you that’s making you feel so bad.
Long before you start expressing the feeling, during, and after. You can long to yourself, as in: why do I feel this way; what is this feeling wanting to show me; what can it tell me about myself - I want to know, I want to understand myself, get to the truth of myself. And you can long to God: please God help me understand the truth of my feeling You want me to see. Please help me see why I’m feeling it - what within me is causing me to feel this way. Speak your longing for the truth in your mind, or even better, out loud.
5. Keep going.
Keep talking about it all, expressing all you feel, moving this way and that, follow new feelings that come up. And ALWAYS LONGING FOR THE TRUTH OF ALL YOU’RE FEELING.
Getting help.
Assuming you have someone - a friend - to talk to, someone who wants to know you, hear your story, listen to you express your bad feelings all day long if that’s what it takes, then tell them all you are feeling. And encourage them to ask you questions, all to help you to bring out more feelings. Why are you feeling that way now; what do you mean - tell me more; can you explain that - why are you so scared... what’s going to happen to you... And then: AND HOW DO YOU FEEL NOW - how does that make you feel... You can ask yourself this too. I feel angry... you talk all about it... and then... how does feeling angry make you feel... you talk all about that... and then if another feeling comes up, how does that feeling make you feel.
Your friend is NOT to try and take over telling you what to do or how you should be to stop yourself feeling bad. They are not to try and solve your problem. And neither are you. If your training is to always try and fix it, then this will be hard to stop. The whole idea in your feeling expression whilst longing for the truth is to simply allow yourself to keep expressing and bringing out all you feel. To allow your feelings to take you where they will. And to not condition or judge or interfere with the process. And not to use your mind to try and fish for answers, looking back into your past and early childhood trying to work out what happened to you back then that might be making you feel bad now as an adult. Just allow your feelings to naturally take you back if that’s where you are led by them. Keep longing for the truth. Keep asking yourself or have your friend ask you questions about how you are feeling, all so you can keep expressing more of your feelings. And keep longing for truth. And when it’s time, when you’ve expressed what needs to come out of you, the truth will come up of its own accord. And when it does, then you will know a little more about yourself.
As the truth comes.
And as the truth comes so you are healing yourself. You are becoming truer to yourself. Yet understand, that whilst you’re in a negative truth-denying state being maintained and brought about by your feeling-denial, your becoming true means you will progressively become truer to your negative self-denying state. Becoming true to your untruth is how you actually heal yourself. It’s all about understanding why you are not truly loving yourself. So your pains and yuk and whole negative state might seem to get even worse as you become more true to it, as you bring to light just how bad you feel and why you do. And this might go on for years - tens of years, all slowly helping you move toward uncovering the WHOLE TRUTH OF YOUR NEGATIVE STATE. And when you see it all, THEN you will be fully healed by your soul and God; then you’ll move into being positively minded and willed, so completely true to yourself.
Once you’re healed.
Then in your true state you’ll naturally continue to express all you feel, all of yourself, thoroughly enjoying all the good feelings resulting from being this way. And you’ll naturally keep longing for the truth, and it will keep coming of its own accord, and you’ll be on your way evolving and growing your soul in truth.
As we all live untrue to ourselves, so we’ve all got to at some time, be it here on Earth or in the mansion worlds in spirit, do our healing, and so become true. We all have to do our Feeling-Healing. And if we are longing for and receiving God’s Divine Love, then we are to do our Soul-Healing - which is inclusive of our Feeling-Healing.
By becoming true we are seeking to perfect our self-expression, all being done through our feelings. Breaking down the control our mind has over our feelings, looking to truly express all we feel.
1. Identify your bad feeling.
Some people always know how they are feeling. For other people who are more used to blocking out feelings, they might find it hard and need initial help to realise they are feeling bad. For example, you might not know you feel scared or angry, but your body language might show it. A friend can help you understand that you are feeling bad, or suggest that perhaps you should be. How are you feeling... do you feel angry... aren’t you feeling angry... in that situation I would be very angry. So the person can ‘try on’ the feeling their friend is suggesting they might be feeling, seeing if they make any connection with it.
2. Acknowledge you’re feeling bad.
First we have to understand we are refusing to feel a lot of our feelings, mostly bad ones. So we have to look objectively at ourselves to see how we are denying them. If you feel bad, for example you feel miserable, what do you do? Do you do anything to try and stop yourself feeling miserable? And what do you do? Do you for example try to cheer yourself up, take your mind off your misery. Do you go to a doctor looking for help to get rid of your miserable feelings. Do you go to a movie, out for dinner, by new clothes, have sex... Do you do anything to try and stop yourself feeling bad?
You have a headache - what do you do? Do you take pills to make it go away; do you lie down; do you just try and ignore it, just getting on with life.
You feel guilty - what do you do about the feeling? Do you do anything to try and make it go away. Do you use your mind to rationalise your bad feeling away, telling yourself it wasn’t your fault...
You feel angry - what do you do about feeling angry? Do you try to stop the thing or person who’s making you feel bad from continuing to make you angry. Do you fight back; do you vent your anger; do you try and rise above it.
3. Express your feelings.
When you’re feeling bad and you know what feeling/s you’re feeling, and have someone willing to listen to you, express, emote and speak about all you feel. Speak with the emotion of the feeling. If you feel angry, speak angrily as you express how you’re feeling. Speak about it all, and for as long as you feel the feeling. Imagine the feeling you’re feeling now is linked to deeper repressed feelings, ones you’ve denied and so are keeping buried and hidden within yourself. So all you’re expressing now is also all you felt back then but didn’t allow yourself to express. So it’s now all coming out.
4. Long for the truth of your feeling.
When you can, long for the truth of your feeling. Want to really know why you’re feeling that way - what is it, what’s really going on within you that’s making you feel so bad.
Long before you start expressing the feeling, during, and after. You can long to yourself, as in: why do I feel this way; what is this feeling wanting to show me; what can it tell me about myself - I want to know, I want to understand myself, get to the truth of myself. And you can long to God: please God help me understand the truth of my feeling You want me to see. Please help me see why I’m feeling it - what within me is causing me to feel this way. Speak your longing for the truth in your mind, or even better, out loud.
5. Keep going.
Keep talking about it all, expressing all you feel, moving this way and that, follow new feelings that come up. And ALWAYS LONGING FOR THE TRUTH OF ALL YOU’RE FEELING.
Getting help.
Assuming you have someone - a friend - to talk to, someone who wants to know you, hear your story, listen to you express your bad feelings all day long if that’s what it takes, then tell them all you are feeling. And encourage them to ask you questions, all to help you to bring out more feelings. Why are you feeling that way now; what do you mean - tell me more; can you explain that - why are you so scared... what’s going to happen to you... And then: AND HOW DO YOU FEEL NOW - how does that make you feel... You can ask yourself this too. I feel angry... you talk all about it... and then... how does feeling angry make you feel... you talk all about that... and then if another feeling comes up, how does that feeling make you feel.
Your friend is NOT to try and take over telling you what to do or how you should be to stop yourself feeling bad. They are not to try and solve your problem. And neither are you. If your training is to always try and fix it, then this will be hard to stop. The whole idea in your feeling expression whilst longing for the truth is to simply allow yourself to keep expressing and bringing out all you feel. To allow your feelings to take you where they will. And to not condition or judge or interfere with the process. And not to use your mind to try and fish for answers, looking back into your past and early childhood trying to work out what happened to you back then that might be making you feel bad now as an adult. Just allow your feelings to naturally take you back if that’s where you are led by them. Keep longing for the truth. Keep asking yourself or have your friend ask you questions about how you are feeling, all so you can keep expressing more of your feelings. And keep longing for truth. And when it’s time, when you’ve expressed what needs to come out of you, the truth will come up of its own accord. And when it does, then you will know a little more about yourself.
As the truth comes.
And as the truth comes so you are healing yourself. You are becoming truer to yourself. Yet understand, that whilst you’re in a negative truth-denying state being maintained and brought about by your feeling-denial, your becoming true means you will progressively become truer to your negative self-denying state. Becoming true to your untruth is how you actually heal yourself. It’s all about understanding why you are not truly loving yourself. So your pains and yuk and whole negative state might seem to get even worse as you become more true to it, as you bring to light just how bad you feel and why you do. And this might go on for years - tens of years, all slowly helping you move toward uncovering the WHOLE TRUTH OF YOUR NEGATIVE STATE. And when you see it all, THEN you will be fully healed by your soul and God; then you’ll move into being positively minded and willed, so completely true to yourself.
Once you’re healed.
Then in your true state you’ll naturally continue to express all you feel, all of yourself, thoroughly enjoying all the good feelings resulting from being this way. And you’ll naturally keep longing for the truth, and it will keep coming of its own accord, and you’ll be on your way evolving and growing your soul in truth.
What is the point of your healing - what it is really all about?
The point is to perfect your current imperfect self by using your feelings to uncover the truth of why you’re not perfect.
Your imperfection is seen and expressed in your feeling-denial. So your healing is to help you eventually live true to all your feelings, to be fully feeling-expressive.
Being untrue to yourself - imperfectly expressing yourself - means you have many erroneous beliefs controlling your behaviour, all of which is unloving - even evil. And all because you are living out of harmony with yourself; you’re not living true to yourself, so not true to nature, or God either.
And our living in disharmony with ourselves is best seen in our relationships -with ourself first, and then with other people, nature (including our pets) and God. And most easily seen in ones relationships with children.
So the whole point of doing your healing is really to perfect your relationships, perfect yourself so are truly relating in your relationships. So you are fully, freely and truly expressing all of you - your whole personality - in all your relationships.
The doing of your Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing will through your feelings uncover all the wrong beliefs and all the unloving behaviour resulting from them, all of which is making you feel bad, so you can understand why you are this way. How such beliefs got put in place during your childhood; how your behaviour reflects such beliefs and all the feelings good and bad that results from it all.
We can’t be truly happy and loving if we’re not perfectly expressing all of ourselves. If we’re deny but one tiny aspect of ourselves then we’re still imperfect and will be unhappy to some extent. And within that imperfection we can’t fully experience love. So we can’t fully give or receive it. And if you know where and how to look at your relationships, as in how you express yourself, you’ll be able to see how this part of you is not working properly, how it’s limiting your experience of life. So all these tiny parts, and there are tens of thousands of them, and all the psychology involved with them, need to be brought out in the open and seen for what they are and how they are not functioning properly.
So systematically your Feeling- or Soul-Healing will show you, and all coming about through your feelings, just what parts of you aren’t working properly: what negative unloving behaviour is involved, what beliefs are determining it, and how that all came about within you through your relationships in your forming years.
And this is all getting to know the truth of yourself, the truth of who you really are.
What might be wrong in you is not always just the more obvious stuff. It’s EVERYTHING that is not allowing you to perfectly express yourself, and as only your soul and God knows all those things, so we need to look to our feelings to show them all to us. And that takes time. And I assure you, you’ll be often very surprised as to what comes up and what you see and understand about yourself - and how wrong you are.
These are examples of some of the sorts of things within you that you might need to understand about yourself:
- That what you call loving is not loving at all, and is in fact rejecting and unloving.
- That when you say no to your cat or dog you are hurting their feelings; and it’s how you say no, your tone of voice, your body language that’s all wrong and unloving, so limiting your relationship with them as you’re limiting your relationship with yourself.
- The way you brush your teeth is unloving, it’s not being kind, gentle and respectful of yourself.
- How you dismissively wave your hands around in the air when you talk is a way of avoiding feelings so it wrong and hurting yourself and limiting your relationships.
- Watching television is limiting your self-expression and so relationships, so why do you need to watch it.
- How you walk shows you are scared, living in a state of nervousness and anxiety, and of course this is not good for you or your relationships.
- When someone farts you feel embarrassed, for yourself - or for them, and so you feel bad - a bad feeling that’s reflecting yet another part of you that’s not right, and for you to uncover the truth of.
- Punching that person, kicking the dog, yelling at your child, this being something that’s very obviously not right within you. The obvious stuff being obvious is far easier to see, yet it’s the million and one little tiny things you do, think and feel that need to be looked into.
- Why you dreamt of that woman or man in a sexually arousing way - why you dream what you do, why you dream things that make you feel bad, why you feel bad about that dream.
- Why you wish you had a different life to the one you have.
- Why you are ill - sick with cancer for example. Another obvious example of things not being right within you.
- Any bad feeling, any pain, all shows things are not functioning properly, and how such feelings and pain makes you feel needs to be expressed and the truth longed for.
- Any physical pain, a sore toe, wind pains, an aching muscle, knee or lower back pain; any pain makes you feel bad, and you can ask yourself how feeling these pains make you feel. Express the feelings and long for the truth.
- Everything you are, all you think, all you fantasise and dream, all you feel and say, all you do, it’s all an expression of your negative, truth-denying and so unloving and evil state of your mind and will. And it’s all controlled by your mind, your beliefs holding it all in place, with your behaviour reflecting what’s going on inside you.
So it’s conceivable, and you probably should expect it, to feel worse and more pain as you progress in your healing, not less, because you are bringing all of your yuk and wrongness to light. And you’ve got to see how it all makes you feel.
Being now many years into my healing, and the inner me, how I feel about myself as a person, is continuing to grow in good feelings, whereas my body is filled with ever increasing pain reflecting just what a poor state I’m really in. How my parents didn’t love me, and how their treatment of me all but crushed me out of existence, all whilst giving me a false belief of being alright and feeling good about myself. Now my feelings of feeling good about myself I know are real as they are coming out of the pain that my parents caused me to feel.
So do you understand: All of you is wrong, because you have been conceived into a unloving and wrong world. And all you think and feel and believe to be right and even loving, might not be what you think it is. And if it is all wrong, then through your healing it will all come to light. And by the end of your healing you will know why you are all wrong and how it all came about, and you’ll no longer be it.
With our healing we only need to bring to light all that’s wrong within us, we don’t actually have to do anything about stopping ourselves being as we are. We only need to uncover the whole truth of our unlovingness. And as we do this, you will find you will change, just naturally responding to your feelings. And at times you might even find you can apply your will to change some part of yourself, but such inspiration will all come from your feelings and NOT from your mind. And when you have uncovered the truth of why you’re feeling bad - when you’ve SEEN IT ALL, then your soul and God will change you. Then you will be healed.
The point is to perfect your current imperfect self by using your feelings to uncover the truth of why you’re not perfect.
Your imperfection is seen and expressed in your feeling-denial. So your healing is to help you eventually live true to all your feelings, to be fully feeling-expressive.
Being untrue to yourself - imperfectly expressing yourself - means you have many erroneous beliefs controlling your behaviour, all of which is unloving - even evil. And all because you are living out of harmony with yourself; you’re not living true to yourself, so not true to nature, or God either.
And our living in disharmony with ourselves is best seen in our relationships -with ourself first, and then with other people, nature (including our pets) and God. And most easily seen in ones relationships with children.
So the whole point of doing your healing is really to perfect your relationships, perfect yourself so are truly relating in your relationships. So you are fully, freely and truly expressing all of you - your whole personality - in all your relationships.
The doing of your Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing will through your feelings uncover all the wrong beliefs and all the unloving behaviour resulting from them, all of which is making you feel bad, so you can understand why you are this way. How such beliefs got put in place during your childhood; how your behaviour reflects such beliefs and all the feelings good and bad that results from it all.
We can’t be truly happy and loving if we’re not perfectly expressing all of ourselves. If we’re deny but one tiny aspect of ourselves then we’re still imperfect and will be unhappy to some extent. And within that imperfection we can’t fully experience love. So we can’t fully give or receive it. And if you know where and how to look at your relationships, as in how you express yourself, you’ll be able to see how this part of you is not working properly, how it’s limiting your experience of life. So all these tiny parts, and there are tens of thousands of them, and all the psychology involved with them, need to be brought out in the open and seen for what they are and how they are not functioning properly.
So systematically your Feeling- or Soul-Healing will show you, and all coming about through your feelings, just what parts of you aren’t working properly: what negative unloving behaviour is involved, what beliefs are determining it, and how that all came about within you through your relationships in your forming years.
And this is all getting to know the truth of yourself, the truth of who you really are.
What might be wrong in you is not always just the more obvious stuff. It’s EVERYTHING that is not allowing you to perfectly express yourself, and as only your soul and God knows all those things, so we need to look to our feelings to show them all to us. And that takes time. And I assure you, you’ll be often very surprised as to what comes up and what you see and understand about yourself - and how wrong you are.
These are examples of some of the sorts of things within you that you might need to understand about yourself:
- That what you call loving is not loving at all, and is in fact rejecting and unloving.
- That when you say no to your cat or dog you are hurting their feelings; and it’s how you say no, your tone of voice, your body language that’s all wrong and unloving, so limiting your relationship with them as you’re limiting your relationship with yourself.
- The way you brush your teeth is unloving, it’s not being kind, gentle and respectful of yourself.
- How you dismissively wave your hands around in the air when you talk is a way of avoiding feelings so it wrong and hurting yourself and limiting your relationships.
- Watching television is limiting your self-expression and so relationships, so why do you need to watch it.
- How you walk shows you are scared, living in a state of nervousness and anxiety, and of course this is not good for you or your relationships.
- When someone farts you feel embarrassed, for yourself - or for them, and so you feel bad - a bad feeling that’s reflecting yet another part of you that’s not right, and for you to uncover the truth of.
- Punching that person, kicking the dog, yelling at your child, this being something that’s very obviously not right within you. The obvious stuff being obvious is far easier to see, yet it’s the million and one little tiny things you do, think and feel that need to be looked into.
- Why you dreamt of that woman or man in a sexually arousing way - why you dream what you do, why you dream things that make you feel bad, why you feel bad about that dream.
- Why you wish you had a different life to the one you have.
- Why you are ill - sick with cancer for example. Another obvious example of things not being right within you.
- Any bad feeling, any pain, all shows things are not functioning properly, and how such feelings and pain makes you feel needs to be expressed and the truth longed for.
- Any physical pain, a sore toe, wind pains, an aching muscle, knee or lower back pain; any pain makes you feel bad, and you can ask yourself how feeling these pains make you feel. Express the feelings and long for the truth.
- Everything you are, all you think, all you fantasise and dream, all you feel and say, all you do, it’s all an expression of your negative, truth-denying and so unloving and evil state of your mind and will. And it’s all controlled by your mind, your beliefs holding it all in place, with your behaviour reflecting what’s going on inside you.
So it’s conceivable, and you probably should expect it, to feel worse and more pain as you progress in your healing, not less, because you are bringing all of your yuk and wrongness to light. And you’ve got to see how it all makes you feel.
Being now many years into my healing, and the inner me, how I feel about myself as a person, is continuing to grow in good feelings, whereas my body is filled with ever increasing pain reflecting just what a poor state I’m really in. How my parents didn’t love me, and how their treatment of me all but crushed me out of existence, all whilst giving me a false belief of being alright and feeling good about myself. Now my feelings of feeling good about myself I know are real as they are coming out of the pain that my parents caused me to feel.
So do you understand: All of you is wrong, because you have been conceived into a unloving and wrong world. And all you think and feel and believe to be right and even loving, might not be what you think it is. And if it is all wrong, then through your healing it will all come to light. And by the end of your healing you will know why you are all wrong and how it all came about, and you’ll no longer be it.
With our healing we only need to bring to light all that’s wrong within us, we don’t actually have to do anything about stopping ourselves being as we are. We only need to uncover the whole truth of our unlovingness. And as we do this, you will find you will change, just naturally responding to your feelings. And at times you might even find you can apply your will to change some part of yourself, but such inspiration will all come from your feelings and NOT from your mind. And when you have uncovered the truth of why you’re feeling bad - when you’ve SEEN IT ALL, then your soul and God will change you. Then you will be healed.