Divine Love Spirituality
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Your soul-healing - ah, now the fun begins...
Feeling-Healing
Your feeling-healing begins with...
Your soul-healing - ah, now the fun begins…
I'm throwing you in at the deep end. Ready?
You’re evil. No matter what you think about yourself: probably that you’re a good person, at least a relatively good person; it doesn’t matter, because you’re still evil. Everyone is until they have completed their healing, and that’s either their soul-healing, which includes the Mother and Father and Their Divine Love; or just their Feeling-Healing, which can be done without directly including God.
Your healing is about stopping you being evil - evil being defined as the denial of personality. Stopping you denying parts of yourself, of your personality, such as your feelings. And how you do that is by uncovering the truth of why you are evil - why you are living in self-denial of your feelings; and finding out the truth of how you were made to become evil. As your soul intrinsically can’t be anything other than love, what was done to you during your early childhood to make you take on your evil ways. Why you had to join everyone else and start using your mind for power and control. Why you were forced to deny your feelings and mostly your bad feelings. How you were made to suppress them as you were growing up, and how they have resulted in your Childhood Repression.
Succinctly, your healing is the healing of your Childhood Repression and the correcting of all your personality’s attributes that have been warped, perverted, or denied their full expression. It’s the healing of your sinful, evil, rebellious mind and will state. It’s the giving up of your minds control over yourself and other people, nature and God; and the choosing to live true to your feelings.
You have been conceived and born into a mind controlling state, and until you’ve healed yourself of it, all you think, do and believe; all you say and how you express yourself, is seeking power and control, and it’s all got to be healed. And to heal it will take a great effort. You are wrong, and to become right, is an immense undertaking and will take years to do. Your healing is not a matter of applying a few mind techniques to gain more mind over matter: it’s the systematic breaking down of your mind, giving over to and freeing up your feelings. It's the stopping living life with and through your mind, and starting to live it from your heart with truth, all through your feelings.
And I know many other spiritual systems and religions purport to help you achieve many of these same things, but as far as I’m concerned, they are only at best healing perhaps a few surface layers, and mostly are just helping you to use you mind through other ways to increase the control over yourself.
The doing of your soul-healing through DLS will break you down, strip you bear. It will bring up all your repressed anger, rage, fear, anxiety, misery that’s contained within your soul, all having been felt but remained unexpressed through your early childhood. All of these bad feeling are festering away inside you breaking out showing themselves in the disguise of disease, bad things happening to you and pain. You have loads of pain locked away inside you and your mind is doing its damnedest not to allow you to feel it. All you do in your life is bad-feeling-avoidance and this has got to stop. Because to heal yourself you’ll want all this repressed pain to surface, all so you can understand what it’s all about; where it’s coming from; why you have it; how it’s negatively affecting you. And as you understand and see the TRUTH of your suffering, then it will end – and ONLY then. The truth will set you free of your pain, but first you have to allow yourself to find and uncover the truth, all being done through the ongoing submission to your bad feelings. All so you can embrace, accept, acknowledge and speak about how bad you really do feel, because as you’ll find out, it’s only through complete self-acceptance of your feelings that you will heal yourself, this being a true act of self-love.
So to stop being how you are, to change yourself around to being something you currently have no idea about – a whole new and different person, but one who loves themselves and does feel truly happy; feeling that happiness merrily bubbling away inside them as a part of the truth of themselves – takes some doing. It’s a personal commitment, and you can begin your healing now, ticking it along through your life slowly advancing and healing yourself, finishing it off when you get to spirit; or, you might want to totally commit yourself to it and heal it all whilst you’re still of flesh. As always it’s what you want to do – what you FEEL you want to do; and what you will feel and choose to do will be right and the best for you.
I am presenting DLS with as many of my healing experiences as I can. Hopefully enough at least to give you some sort of idea as to what you can expect. However, my healing is my healing, your healing will be however it is for you. So try not to expect it to happen as it has happened for me. Allow yourself to be free to just see where it takes you and what you become.
The healing is the guts of DLS, after all we all want to make ourselves feel better. That is why you’re here reading about this – isn’t it? And DLS won’t let you down. If you can manage to start letting go the control of your mind, expressing your bad feelings, and revealing the truth of your negative evil state to yourself, then it will take you into areas and levels of yourself and life you had no idea existed. And it’s why we're all here on Earth. Why God has started us off in the negative – all so we can directly experience it, see what it feels like to live unloving lives, and then heal ourselves of them. Then be free to experience the opposite – a life of Love.
Feeling-Healing
I have included this here from my Childhood Repression web-site - see LINKS. That site does not outwardly include or involve God and Their Divine Love. However, it is during our soul-healing that we do our feeling-healing, so it's all very relevant here.
How to heal your childhood repression: a brief introduction.
As our childhood repression is maintained through our feeling-denial, to heal it, we need to embrace those feelings we are refusing to admit we feel.
We mostly focus on our bad feelings, as they are what we are denying making us feel bad.
To begin with you will need to want to know the truth of why you feel bad and why you are denying your bad feelings, and you carry this desire as a deep heartfelt longing. We long for the truth of our self. We long to live true - true to our feelings. We long to know the truth of why we are feeling bad. And we want the truth more than anything else – WE REALLY DO WANT TO KNOW. So we long as often as we remember to, especially during our healing – when we are feeling bad feelings and speaking about them.
Next we honour our bad feelings. We grab them; we acknowledge we are feeling bad; we admit we are feeling bad; we accept we are feeling bad. All very important to do instead of denying them. Don’t push your anger away, instead acknowledge you are feeling it. Accept that you are feeling it – JUST FEEL IT. You don’t have to do anything about it. And you don’t have to try to work out with your mind why you are angry. JUST FEEL ANGRY, IF YOU FEEL ANGRY. NOTHING ELSE!
Then we speak about our bad feeling. We express it. We let it have it’s say. We speak whatever it is we feel about it. And we speak about it – express it, to someone who wants to hear about how we're feeling.
If you have a friend or your partner or a “helping witness”, someone who sincerely wants to know how you are feeling, then tell them, address them, speak to them wanting their sympathy. You want them to listen to you. You want them to know and understand you. Your parents didn’t want to listen or know you. Tell your friend all about your bad feeling, and tell them EVERY time you feel bad.
Describe your bad feeling. Even your physical pain… ‘my head hurts over my left eye, a sharp stabbing pain… my head hurts, my head hurts… it feels like a knife is stabbing through it here and here…’ Tell your friend. By telling your friend you are seeking their sympathy, as you once sort the sympathy of your parents. And as your friend accepts you, so too are you now, finally, able to accept yourself, ending your self-rejection. Finally you can acknowledge to yourself that you DO feel this way, and that it's PERFECTLY okay to feel so. It's perfectly okay to be how you feel to be. At long last you can be yourself - your true self, just as you truly feel!
Express it – moan, groan, let your bad feeling speak… ‘Miserable, I feel miserable…’ Say what you feel. Be what you feel. Get into the feeling and be it. Don’t stand back impersonally speaking about it as if it’s your left leg, be your bad feeling and speak with the intensity and ‘feeling’ of your bad feeling.
And speak about how feeling this bad feeling makes you feel. ‘Feeling so miserable makes me feel unwanted, alone, powerless…’
And how does feeling these bad feelings make you feel? ‘When I feel powerless I feel so weak… so useless, pathetic, it makes me want to...’
And express these feelings and emotions: feel pathetic, feel useless; express your patheticness when you tell your friend, and keep going speaking about how bad you feel for as long as you can.
Ask yourself and express - speak about if relevant:
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?
WHY DO I HAVE SUFFER THIS...
WHY DO I HAVE TO HAVE THIS ... MAKING ME FEEL BAD
WHY EVERY TIME I WANT TO DO SOMETHING...
WHY EVERY TIME I EXPECT IT TO WORK IT DOESN'T?
WHY DO I HAVE TO GET SICK. AND WHY THIS SICKNESS?
Ask yourself because you want to know the truth.
And when you can, remember to long hard for the truth – really want to know why you are feeling this way. Tell your listening friend about how MUCH you do want to know the truth of why you're feeling bad.
Then keep speaking and expressing how you feel. You keep going until you can’t say anymore… and then you go further… always further, if you can. And the further you go the deeper your bad feelings will take you back in yourself, back into your early childhood, where it all starts from.
Long to know the truth of what happened to you during your early childhood to cause you to now feel bad.
Keep expressing and speaking about your bad feelings. It might take minuets, it might take hours, it might take days, or weeks. And the same bad feelings will come up countless times over and over, and each time you have to accept them, express them, and long for the truth of them. Speak and express them; long for the truth of them, and you will find, you will show it to yourself. Amazingly the truth will come. Suddenly you will see a new aspect of your problem. You may suddenly understand another part of your feeling and self-denial, and another part of your negative unloving relationship with your parents. Slowly all the pieces of the puzzle will come together.
Don’t go hunting or digging using your mind, looking back into your early childhood for answers. Allow, and wait, for the truth to come of it's own accord. The truth will come as a result of persistent bad feeling expressing, and a strong genuine longing for the it. It comes when you are ready to see it, and in its own time - you cannot control it. The truth is the end product of your feeling self-expression.
And once the truth has come you will more than likely stop feeling bad anymore. Or you’ll move onto some other part of your repression needing your attention, with yet more bad feelings to accept and express.
And realistically, and I know this sounds obvious, you can only do what you can do. If no truth comes don't worry, it might come later through the day, it might come the next day or the next... just keep expressing your bad feelings and longing to uncover and see it. The most important part is to just keep accepting your bad feelings and speaking up about them: getting them out – expressing and emoting them. They are the puss, the poison, repressed, trapped within you, and you must want them to come out. Once they are out then you can see the damage they have done. And why what was done to you to create them, occurred.
And if you don’t have a friend or partner willing to listen unconditionally to your bad feeling expression, then speak to yourself out loud if you can. Speak to your cat or dog, the wall, write them, share them on the forum, and long for someone to come and help you; long for a friend to come, someone who will really want to know you.
And if you are the listener, the friend, don’t step in and take over from the person trying to express their bad feelings. DON’T TRY AND FIND A SOLUTION. This only will make the person continue to deny their bad feelings, and that’s what you don’t want. Shut up and listen, or listen actively asking questions that help your friend keep focused on, and speaking about, their bad feelings. Some people will find this easy to do being naturally interested in the person and wanting them to speak more about how they feel and think about everything; other people who have been made to reject people and not want to hear their bad feelings, will want to stop them from speaking - want to stop them feeling bad so they no longer have bad feelings to speak about.
And keep going. There is nothing you can do about all you find and see about yourself as you do your childhood repression healing, other than accept it and keep speaking about how it makes you feel. Only the speaking and expressing and seeing the truth is what you can do, you can’t actually heal yourself. This happens automatically and as a consequence of your seeing the truth. No truth – no healing. When you see the truth, then you've stopped denying that part of yourself. It has been healed. You might not feel this straight away, but as time passes you’ll become aware that you have changed, that things that used to make you feel bad don’t anymore.
And as you feel better about yourself, you’ll be able to open up and access even deeper hidden parts, causing you to feel worse about lots more things.
Deeper and deeper you’ll go over years. You will be guided by your soul And you will see, there will be a purpose and a strategy that will gradually make itself known to you, but only if you stay committed to wanting the truth and wanting to live true. I can’t stress how important it is to desire with all your heart and from the depths of your soul, to long for the truth of your childhood repression.
Your desire to find the truth of yourself if what fuels and drives your healing, without it you’ll be wasting your time. With no desire to find the truth, you can speak and express all your feelings all you want, but without healing any of your childhood repression. It's my belief you can completely heal everything that's wrong within you by expressing ALL your feelings and longing to know the truth of them – why you are feeling them.
It is my belief (I don't know for sure, as I am not there yet) that you can heal all of your childhood repression.
Your Feeling-Healing begins with: BAD FEELING ACCEPTANCE
It’s okay to feel bad.
Bad feelings are okay.
It’s good to feel bad. Bad feelings are good. It’s good to feel bad about feeling bad.
Bad feelings are YOUR feelings. YOUR bad feelings have a right – a right to exist. A right for you to feel them. Your bad feelings are a part of you.
ACCEPT THEM!
Bad feelings are good, and their your feelings!
It’s okay to feel bad; there is nothing wrong with feeling bad. You might not like feeling bad, but it’s okay to feel bad. You are allowed to feel bad. Bad feelings shouldn’t be dismissed.
Bad feelings already feel unwanted; why make them feel more rejected – you are your bad feelings. If you reject them you’re rejecting yourself.
Why are you rejecting yourself? Why are you rejecting your bad feelings? Is this how you want to live – rejecting a natural part of yourself? Is this really how you want to live - rejecting your bad feelings?
Feeling bad is normal. We all feel bad. We all feel bad a lot of the time, even if we won’t admit it; often we're not even aware of it.
There are many bad feelings; all sorts of different bad feelings, and they are a normal part of you – of everyday life.
Bad feelings – your bad feelings – are to be welcomed. Bad feelings are to be wanted. Bad feelings are to be accepted. Bad feelings are to be loved.
If you ignore or deny or dismiss or reject your bad feelings what are you really doing? Denying, dismissing, rejecting yourself. Is this how you want to be?
You are your bad feelings – Your bad feelings are you.
Bad feelings have just as much right to life as good feelings.
Be true to your bad feelings – accept them!
Feeling bad is GOOD!
