When you’re fed up with being evil, with denying any aspect of yourself,
then it’s time to start living true to all your feelings.
then it’s time to start living true to all your feelings.
Dear reader,
In case you don’t like to read too much, I’ve tried to put Divine Love Spirituality as concisely as I can. So for what it’s worth, this is how I see things.
Divine Love Spirituality: Using your feelings to uncover the truth of yourself; and longing to God for the Divine Love.
Our Problem:
Humanity is all wrong. We all exist in a state of rebellion. We all live using our minds to control ourselves, each other and nature. And we do this by denying many of our true feelings, and in particular our bad feelings.
All the existing religious and spiritual systems have been evolved within this feeling-denial, so they are all ways of trying to make ourselves feel better whilst keeping all the bad feelings - all the bad feelings we still feel deep down inside us that we suffered through our early childhood - out of sight. So all the Eastern ways: meditation, selflessness, reincarnation, mantras, following guru, enlightenment, striving for nirvana, are all ways to stop yourself feeling bad - to help you transcend your bad feelings, rising above them, which is all denying them. And the Western Christian religions are no different only using Jesus and God to help deny them. And it’s the same for the Muslims. And then it’s also the same with all the alternative New Age stuff: positive thinking, emotional clearing, raising your vibration, all the self-help therapies, regular therapy - again all yet more ways to keep all the bad stuff buried. So they are all different ways of keeping your mind in control of your feelings.
The Remedy:
Divine Love Spirituality goes against all of this, does the very opposite, it all being about fully allowing yourself to feel and express ALL your feelings, and in particular all the bad ones. So when you feel bad, to allow yourself to be in and fully feel that bad feeling, to not try and push it aside or block it out or override it. To not pretend you’re feeling good when really you’re feeling bad.
So it begins by identifying your feelings, acknowledging that you are feeling that way, and understanding that it’s okay and good to feel however you are feeling - so accept you are feeling this way. Then to try and express the emotion and feeling, either speaking it out to God, to a friend, or writing about it, but not just keeping it in - getting it out somehow. It’s all got to come out, otherwise it just keeps making us sick and feeling even worse.
Then the next main part is: wanting with all your being, all your will, all your heart, all your soul, to know and see and understand the TRUTH of the feelings you are feeling. This is the spiritual part to it. If you don’t want to know the truth of what you are feeling, then you can express your feelings all day long, even drowning in them, and yet nothing will happen, you’ll just keep feeling bad. So the idea is to uncover the truth of ourselves through our feelings. So we use our feelings to get to know ourselves. So we long for the truth as we’re identifying, accepting and expressing our feelings. You make a determined effort to want to know the truth you are feeling. And you can ask God to help you see the truth of your feelings, through your feelings, and NOT with your mind. So it’s all feelings.
And if you want to relate to your feelings this way, looking to them to show you the truth that God and your soul want you to see about yourself, then in time as you focus on and allow yourself to accept and go with your bad feelings, you’ll work your way back into all your repressed and deeply buried childhood feelings. So it’s a form of self-therapy, true self-love, full unconditional self-acceptance, and it can be gruelling if you want to fully commit yourself to the process. However as far as I’m concerned, and from all I’ve been through in my own healing, it’s the only way to heal ourselves of our feeling denial; of our mind having control over ourselves. And to become in the end, once all our Childhood Repression is out of us, truly loving and happy.
Then the final part, which you do whenever you please, is developing a personal relationship with God by longing directly to God for Their Love, which is the Divine Love. (I relate to God as both my Heavenly Parents, I speak with my Mother and Father, individually and together. We can long to God for Divine Love however we relate to God. I started out longing to the Creator for His Divine Love, but as my relationship with God has evolved, now I love God as two separate Personalities - my true Parents, the parents of my soul: my Mother and Father.)
Our human love and that of nature is natural love. Divine Love is something entirely from God, but we have to go to God and ask Them for it. So we have to long with our feelings to Them for it. And if you do, you can feel it actually coming into your heart and soul as They love you. Sit quietly... or when you’re in bed... or out walking - anytime you feel, and open your heart to God and tell Them you want Their Divine Love in your heart and soul. Then Long to Them, ask Them, yearn to Them with all your feelings of really wanting Their Love and for Them to love you: to please Mother and Father fill my soul with Your Divine Love. Then once you’ve longed, just let go and see if you can feel the Love coming into you. It will be a nice subtle feeling of warmth coming around you and then actually moving into you, even as if in some way you are sort of breathing it into yourself.
So that’s it - Divine Love Spirituality.
Longing for God’s Divine Love will take you all the way to God, so one day, so it’s said, you will actually meet your Mother and Father on Paradise. It’s what all our souls are longing for if we acknowledge that inner desire and feeling that we all want to be at-one with God. And so it’s by longing for and receiving the Divine Love into our soul that we achieve that.
So these are three different ways we can choose to live life, remembering that we’re all starting off in the negative; so, anti God, anti Love, anti Truth, anti our feelings, so anti our self.
1. If you want you can just do your healing without including the Divine Love - Feeling-Healing. If you only do your Feeling-Healing, so without God’s Love, as you’re not wanting to personalise your relationship with God, you will be limited in your spiritual growth to the first seven mansion worlds. However you will perfect your natural love by healing your rebellious state and enjoy a loving and happy natural life. But not a divine one.
2. If you want to go the whole way, which I call Soul-Healing (which is inclusive of feeling-healing), you will need to do your healing and long for the Divine Love. And by living this way you will move up through all the levels, worlds and spheres to Paradise. We can start our ascension of truth now in flesh, carrying it on in our spirit lives. And this will be a divine life once you’ve finished your healing.
3. If you don’t do anything, just being as you are, and looking to any of the existing religious and spiritual mind-based systems, so choosing to keep on living with your mind in control of your feelings, you’ll be limited in your spiritual growth to just three mansion worlds, those being where everyone who wants to remain in rebellion against themselves by denying their bad feelings, the Truth, and God, can live. These mansion worlds being where you’ll go after you die.
So in conclusion, if you want to live true to yourself and your soul; live the highest spiritual life you can, then there are two things to do.
1. Long for the Divine Love.
2. Do your Soul-Healing.
And that really is it. That will take care of everything.
In case you don’t like to read too much, I’ve tried to put Divine Love Spirituality as concisely as I can. So for what it’s worth, this is how I see things.
Divine Love Spirituality: Using your feelings to uncover the truth of yourself; and longing to God for the Divine Love.
Our Problem:
Humanity is all wrong. We all exist in a state of rebellion. We all live using our minds to control ourselves, each other and nature. And we do this by denying many of our true feelings, and in particular our bad feelings.
All the existing religious and spiritual systems have been evolved within this feeling-denial, so they are all ways of trying to make ourselves feel better whilst keeping all the bad feelings - all the bad feelings we still feel deep down inside us that we suffered through our early childhood - out of sight. So all the Eastern ways: meditation, selflessness, reincarnation, mantras, following guru, enlightenment, striving for nirvana, are all ways to stop yourself feeling bad - to help you transcend your bad feelings, rising above them, which is all denying them. And the Western Christian religions are no different only using Jesus and God to help deny them. And it’s the same for the Muslims. And then it’s also the same with all the alternative New Age stuff: positive thinking, emotional clearing, raising your vibration, all the self-help therapies, regular therapy - again all yet more ways to keep all the bad stuff buried. So they are all different ways of keeping your mind in control of your feelings.
The Remedy:
Divine Love Spirituality goes against all of this, does the very opposite, it all being about fully allowing yourself to feel and express ALL your feelings, and in particular all the bad ones. So when you feel bad, to allow yourself to be in and fully feel that bad feeling, to not try and push it aside or block it out or override it. To not pretend you’re feeling good when really you’re feeling bad.
So it begins by identifying your feelings, acknowledging that you are feeling that way, and understanding that it’s okay and good to feel however you are feeling - so accept you are feeling this way. Then to try and express the emotion and feeling, either speaking it out to God, to a friend, or writing about it, but not just keeping it in - getting it out somehow. It’s all got to come out, otherwise it just keeps making us sick and feeling even worse.
Then the next main part is: wanting with all your being, all your will, all your heart, all your soul, to know and see and understand the TRUTH of the feelings you are feeling. This is the spiritual part to it. If you don’t want to know the truth of what you are feeling, then you can express your feelings all day long, even drowning in them, and yet nothing will happen, you’ll just keep feeling bad. So the idea is to uncover the truth of ourselves through our feelings. So we use our feelings to get to know ourselves. So we long for the truth as we’re identifying, accepting and expressing our feelings. You make a determined effort to want to know the truth you are feeling. And you can ask God to help you see the truth of your feelings, through your feelings, and NOT with your mind. So it’s all feelings.
And if you want to relate to your feelings this way, looking to them to show you the truth that God and your soul want you to see about yourself, then in time as you focus on and allow yourself to accept and go with your bad feelings, you’ll work your way back into all your repressed and deeply buried childhood feelings. So it’s a form of self-therapy, true self-love, full unconditional self-acceptance, and it can be gruelling if you want to fully commit yourself to the process. However as far as I’m concerned, and from all I’ve been through in my own healing, it’s the only way to heal ourselves of our feeling denial; of our mind having control over ourselves. And to become in the end, once all our Childhood Repression is out of us, truly loving and happy.
Then the final part, which you do whenever you please, is developing a personal relationship with God by longing directly to God for Their Love, which is the Divine Love. (I relate to God as both my Heavenly Parents, I speak with my Mother and Father, individually and together. We can long to God for Divine Love however we relate to God. I started out longing to the Creator for His Divine Love, but as my relationship with God has evolved, now I love God as two separate Personalities - my true Parents, the parents of my soul: my Mother and Father.)
Our human love and that of nature is natural love. Divine Love is something entirely from God, but we have to go to God and ask Them for it. So we have to long with our feelings to Them for it. And if you do, you can feel it actually coming into your heart and soul as They love you. Sit quietly... or when you’re in bed... or out walking - anytime you feel, and open your heart to God and tell Them you want Their Divine Love in your heart and soul. Then Long to Them, ask Them, yearn to Them with all your feelings of really wanting Their Love and for Them to love you: to please Mother and Father fill my soul with Your Divine Love. Then once you’ve longed, just let go and see if you can feel the Love coming into you. It will be a nice subtle feeling of warmth coming around you and then actually moving into you, even as if in some way you are sort of breathing it into yourself.
So that’s it - Divine Love Spirituality.
Longing for God’s Divine Love will take you all the way to God, so one day, so it’s said, you will actually meet your Mother and Father on Paradise. It’s what all our souls are longing for if we acknowledge that inner desire and feeling that we all want to be at-one with God. And so it’s by longing for and receiving the Divine Love into our soul that we achieve that.
So these are three different ways we can choose to live life, remembering that we’re all starting off in the negative; so, anti God, anti Love, anti Truth, anti our feelings, so anti our self.
1. If you want you can just do your healing without including the Divine Love - Feeling-Healing. If you only do your Feeling-Healing, so without God’s Love, as you’re not wanting to personalise your relationship with God, you will be limited in your spiritual growth to the first seven mansion worlds. However you will perfect your natural love by healing your rebellious state and enjoy a loving and happy natural life. But not a divine one.
2. If you want to go the whole way, which I call Soul-Healing (which is inclusive of feeling-healing), you will need to do your healing and long for the Divine Love. And by living this way you will move up through all the levels, worlds and spheres to Paradise. We can start our ascension of truth now in flesh, carrying it on in our spirit lives. And this will be a divine life once you’ve finished your healing.
3. If you don’t do anything, just being as you are, and looking to any of the existing religious and spiritual mind-based systems, so choosing to keep on living with your mind in control of your feelings, you’ll be limited in your spiritual growth to just three mansion worlds, those being where everyone who wants to remain in rebellion against themselves by denying their bad feelings, the Truth, and God, can live. These mansion worlds being where you’ll go after you die.
So in conclusion, if you want to live true to yourself and your soul; live the highest spiritual life you can, then there are two things to do.
1. Long for the Divine Love.
2. Do your Soul-Healing.
And that really is it. That will take care of everything.
DLS: how to begin?
Well, simply you start longing for the Divine Love from the Mother and Father; and longing for the truth of your feelings, as you start to focus on them with the intention of uncovering the truth of yourself, your life, and of the Mother and Father, through them. It's quite easy in theory, however you're probably coming to DLS with your own spiritual and religious beliefs, some of which DLS will confront possibly causing blocks and resistance within you. So what's to be done about these potential problems? And I guess the answer to that is for you to just go as you feel; and if you want to seriously uncover the truth of yourself, you'll arrive at the block, and either it will thwart you or you'll be able to push through it. And if you do feel blocked and want a helping hand, start speaking up about the block, expressing your annoyance, anger, frustration of the bad feeling. And start longing to uncover the truth of why you have it. I was thinking about trying to create something of a flow chart with directions such as... if you are new to God – start here... or, if you are already longing for and receiving the Divine Love – start here... But then I felt, no, I'll just present what I feel so people can do what they like. I don't need to be the controller. So I'll leave it up to you. Some people are interested in understanding about it all – great, but others might only want to get the general idea and happily live the basic principles, without needing to know all the ins and outs. And, by the way, if you happen to be one of these people, just intuitively and with your feelings wanting to get on with it, please understand that you will not deprive yourself or be 'less spiritual', than the person who wants to, and can, understand it all. We grow spiritually through our feelings, and not with what's in our mind. A Trinity of Longing
It's a Trinity of Longing that we live in our daily lives: Love – Truth – Spirit or Life (feelings). Practically, it's far more important to us than the Biblical Trinity: The Father, Son and Holy Ghost - which wrong anyway. On a spiritual level, as we read in The Urantia Book, the Paradise Trinity consists of: The Father (and Mother), the Eternal Son (of Truth), and the Infinite (Daughter) Spirit. Which equates to: Love, Truth and Spirit or Life. And on the local universal level, when we long for the Divine Love, we receive the Divine Love from the Divine Minister via the Holy Spirit; and we receive the Truth through the help of Mary and Jesus' Spirits of Truth. 'Life' encapsulates how you live and express yourself in your life. All you think and feel, all you do and say – an ongoing expression of your personality, of your spirit and mind, of your LIGHT. So you end up living a life of LIGHT and LIFE, through the ongoing expression of Truth – the truth that comes to you, lovingly – with love, your own love, and the Mother and Father's Love. It might sound a bit complicated, but don't worry about that, it's part of the spiritual cosmology if you're interested in such things, all of which the religions have muddled up parts of. But if you long for the Love and Truth, and seek to uncover the truth of ALL your feelings, then you're living the Trinities on all levels - naturally. It's quite easy really. |
Prayer is the act of asking. And usually we pray to God asking Them for what we want - often for things and help.
Now we can also pray to Them asking for Their love - the Divine Love. And asking them to help us see the truth of all that's wrong within us through our feelings. How do you pray - you pray using words
How do you long - you long using feelings It's far more important to long with your heart than to pray with your mind.
You can long with all the intensity of your feelings and nothing else, and your longing will still be answered. You can pray for hours and hours with your mind, and nothing will happen. And if it does, it's because you've also longed. Your longing takes but a heart-felt moment. It can be sustained with feelings. Longing involves the passion of desire - you really want it. Long FIRST, and then support your longing with words of prayer. This is very important. Always your longing is what really counts. Your longing is your real and true prayer. You can't sustain your longing by using your mind. Truth and Love are the highest things you can long for, from which all else will follow. And remember: praying using a learnt prayer repetitively saying words will not be heard - it will not get you what you want; unless, even unwittingly, you include your longing as well. You need to put the person - you, into it, doing so through your earnest yearnings and with FEELING. And when you truly pray and long, do it expecting only that your longing will be answered, not expecting or thinking you know how it will be answered. Pray and long, and then let it go. Allow the Mother and Father to respond to you, how and when They know is best. They will always meed your needs - soul needs, and not what you mind might think it needs. Mother and Father:
Please help me to long for the Truth and Your Love in the right way. I long and pray to You to help me see the truth You want me to see. Please help me to uncover it through my feelings. Please help me to feel those feelings I need to feel to find the truth. Please help me live true to my feelings. Please help me express and speak about all I feel. Please bring up my repressed feelings so I can see the truth of them. Please help me live true to myself, so I can live true to You. Please help me to know the truth when it's revealed to me. Please help me to see my untruth. Please help me to love You as I love myself. |
Getting on living DLS - a brief introduction
As there is a lot involved in living DLS, I have written this as something of a brief summary to introduce you to what you have to do to get on with. To begin: What do you want? Want to live Divine Love Spirituality? Then this is what you will need to want, long for - desire. Want to live at-one with God – with your Heavenly Mother and Father; want to be as perfect as God is – want to heal all that is wrong within you; and want to see the truth of everything: you, life and God. Want Mary Magdalene and Jesus to help you (via their Spirits of Truth) see the truth how they see it. Want to live your Mother and Father’s Will – live the way They want you to live and not the way you want to live without Them. Want to include Them in every aspect of your life; want to be with Them and have Them with you. Want to be how They want you to be; want to say what They want you to say; want to feel and do what They want you to feel and do. And want to do your soul-healing and see the truth of your childhood repression. Want to give up all falseness, fantasy, delusion, sin, evil and error. Want to give up all power. Want to stop living with your mind in control, and instead want your feelings to guide you. Want to love nature and see how you're denying it. Want to change. Want to live true to your feelings – to always honour, accept and express them. And finally: want to know which of your 'wants' are false and untrue. Want Their Divine Love and want the Truth! These wants above, you can pray to the Mother and Father to help you fulfill, as your feelings take you. And tell Them any other things you want – even material things. Establishing what you want helps focus your will on what you want to achieve – how you want to live. You have to want, and at times VERY STRONGLY WANT, for anything to happen – it’s the beginning. Long for Their Divine Love. Long with your heart, with the feelings of your desire for Their Love. Long earnestly and sincerely – yearn for Their Divine Love. Long when the inspiration to long takes you. Long and then allow yourself time to accept – receive – Their Love; time for Them to come to you and give you Their Divine Love (via the Holy Spirit). This time can be a few moments while you’re on the go, or sitting quietly for a longer time in mediation, prayer and worship of Them. Ask with your mind for Their Divine Love. Use your mind to support your hearts longing. Pray with words, out loud or in your mind, telling Them what you want: Their Love, and that you're asking Them for it. But always remember that your mind’s asking is secondary to your longing feelings. Genuine longings from your soul are what Their Soul answers with Divine Love. Longing for and receiving Their Love is the most important part – establishing a relationship of love with Them. It connects you, Their child, with Them, your Parents - the Creators of your soul and givers of your personality. Even if you can’t go any further, like doing your healing because it’s all too hard, at least you can concentrate on longing for Their Love, loving Them, and being loved by Them – enjoying having Them in your life and Their Divine Love in your soul. Long for the Truth. This is wanting to know the truth of all that you are; all that you do, say and want; the truth of all your behaviour; the truth of your beliefs – of all your mind patterns, both negative and positive. It’s wanting to do your soul-healing: the healing of all that is wrong within you so far as God is concerned – and not your parents or other authorities. It's about wanting to live God's Laws - the laws of your soul. It’s about wanting to see the truth of your negative mind and will condition. This includes healing all your childhood repression. You have to want to go back into your early childhood and see what was wrong in your relationship between you and your parents. How they denied you; made you deny yourself, and how you’ve taken it all on. How they didn’t love you as you needed to be loved. It means looking into your darkness and confronting all your hidden secrets. You have to long to see, understand, realise, accept and know the truth of it all. Long, beg, plead with Them to show you the TRUTH of all the things you want to see and know about yourself and your life. Particularly all the bad things. And understand that, longing for the truth means you are going to change. The doing of your soul-healing This is the hands on, during every moment of your day, doing your healing. You can do it at a pace that suits you. You can want to know the truth of things in your life as you feel you want to know them. When something happens, or something makes you feel bad or strange, then you can want to know the truth of why. How you find the truth is through the ongoing expressing of ALL you feel and think, whilst longing – really wanting – to know the truth of why you think and feel it. Particularly if you feel bad about anything; if anything makes you feel bad, then start by accepting that you feel bad – speak about it all out loud to someone if you can, or in your head to Them or yourself. As you accept the bad feelings, speak about them: describe them – how they are making you feel and what you feel about having them, speak about it all. As you’re speaking about it all, long to see and to know – really want to see and know with all your grunt – the truth of it all – all you’re feeling: why you are feeling what you are feeling. Emote your feelings with the full FEELING OF THEM. 'I'M SO ANGRY...', and keep going whilst wanting to know the WHOLE TRUTH of why you are. Always speak about your feelings, and particularly your bad feelings – ALWAYS. Your childhood repression is buried and repressed deep within you - it all has to come out. And it comes out through your feelings. The more you can accept and allow yourself to feel bad and speak about how you feel, all the while longing for the truth of why you feel this way, the more you’ll progress – it’s the only way. It’s how you can heal your soul. As you bring it up and let out all your repressed yuk, so too can you see, find and know the truth of it – this is your spiritual progress, your growth of truth; it’s you on your way to Paradise, and on your way to becoming perfect, real and true. Expect that bad things will keep happening as you progress with your healing, because you need them to – you need them to make you feel bad so you can accept, express and see more truth of your repressed childhood feelings. If you can, even WANT to feel bad. Go with your healing as it feels best for you. If it gets all too much, stop longing for the truth. Give yourself a chance to catch up. It’s not a race; you have the rest of your life, and then life in spirit to do it all. And don’t expect your childhood stuff to come up immediately. It may take years before you start to really connect with it. But don't be disappointed or put off by this, as there will be lots of other preparatory work for you to do within yourself, all of which will be a part of your healing. All of which will need to be done and can't be avoided. It will help you fully understand who you really are. Summary: Long for the Divine Love and long to know and see the Truth, but do it only when and as you want to – when you feel to. Don't do it because you think you should, don't do it with your mind - it all has to be done with your feelings, it all has to come naturally. If you disconnect into your mind, you'll lose touch with your feelings - then no truth will come. Try to honour your feelings: by living true to them. Keep on expressing all the good and bad feelings you feel. Accept, express and want to find the truth of them. And speak to the Mother and Father: tell Them what you want and what you don’t want – tell Them how you feel. And keep going! A simple prayer Mother and Father: Please help me to live true to You and myself - true to my feelings. Please help me to see the truth You want me to see. Please help me to live how You want me to express myself. Please help me to do WHATEVER I need to do so I can heal myself and see the whole truth of my negative state – everything! Mother and Father, I don't want to be evil. Please help me see how I am evil, wrong and untrue; and how I can heal it though doing my healing. And please respond to my longing and fill my soul with Your Divine Love. Now you long and express your own prayer to Them, for Their Love and for the Truth. We spiritually develop by living true to our feelings, however we soul develop only with the inclusion of the Divine Love.
Long for the Divine Love. Long with your feelings, and with feeling. NOT with only our mind. Long
Long for God’s Love. It’s the most wonderful thing we can do for ourselves. We can actually long to God for His and Her Divine Love. All you need do is long, long with all your heart. Want Their Divine Love. Want Them to love you with Their Divine Love. Want Them to fill your soul with Their Divine Love. Tell Them what you want – that you want Their Love. Ask Them for Their love – ask Them to love you and put Their Love in your soul. Give yourself a moment and then LONG – Long to God for God’s Divine Love. It only takes a moment’s inspiration to long. Long, then relax and allow Them to direct the Holy Spirit to bring Their Love into your soul. You’ll feel the Holy Spirit come about you, come into you; you’ll feel Their love flowing into your soul – you’ll feel Them loving you. It’s a beautiful experience – there’s nothing else like it. And it’s a real experience – partaking of Their Divine Love, does happen – you’ll feel it. Ask and Receive. Don’t ask too much with your mind, but long with and from your heart all you want. You don’t need words to long: just yearn, reach out longingly asking Them for Their Divine Love. Try it. Go on, Long as you're reading this! Long NOW for Their Love and feel it come into your soul. And if you don't feel anything, don't get discouraged, try again later. It can take time before your system awakens enough for you to feel it coming into you. But if your desire and longing are true, eventually it will come. Long again NOW. It can come in a woosh, it can come into very subtly, as the Holy Spirit - the Holy Ghost, delivers it into your heart and soul. Long again NOW. And with time, you'll become more familiar with receiving it - what it feels like for you. And so, long again NOW... ‘Let the Spirit of God guide you’.
And how do you do that? By submitting to your feelings. And how do you submit to them? By accepting them – all of them, good and bad. Speaking about them, expressing them, helps you accept them. It makes you pay attention to them - focus on them, and not ignore them or brush them aside. And in doing so, you're paying attention to yourself - to all you feel. Your feelings are the real you, not your thoughts and fantasies. And always long for the truth of them. No longing for the truth of them and all you're doing is speaking them, and people do that all day long as they speak to each other yet without wanting to uncover any truth. THE TRUTH IS VITAL, NO TRUTH, NO SPIRITUAL PROGRESS. And when the truth comes and you live it, then you’ll be living true to your feelings, to yourself and to God. Then God’s Indwelling Spirit can freely guide you – all through your feelings. I am a creature like other creatures of natural love. I want to become divine. I want to become as God is.
I don’t want to be an egotistical 'god' like my parents were, only knowing how to control me and everything in life. I want to give up all my controlling, power-seeking, unloving ways of behaviour. I don't to be evil and anti love anymore. I hate being as I am, I want to be as You are, God! I want to become as God is so I can feel what God feels; know what God knows; see it how God sees it. I want to be like God, the same as God - of God’s essence. So I long for God’s Divine Love to transform my soul of the natural into that of the divine. |
Grace Period
I can’t imagine everyone who finds out about the Divine Love and starts longing to the Mother and Father for it, is going to want to immediately start their soul-healing. And I doubt many people will want to commit themselves completely to the doing of their healing when they begin, as it would be too much. I was speaking to Jesus about this because the enormity of our healing and its intensity would mean that everyone who took it on fully committing themselves to doing it would probably have to go on unemployment benefits if they didn’t have enough money to support themselves, as they gave up everything they were doing that was wrong. I couldn’t see that many people’s lives would allow them to do this, nor would they want to give up everything, let alone, many, if not all, of their family and friend relationships. A few people who don't have much might be prepared to give up everything to uncover the whole truth within themselves, but I can't see that many people wanting to do it. Only possibly those people who've reached the end of their road, needing only the truth to help them, and how many such people like that might their be. He said that many people and spirits when they first embrace the Divine Love enter into what he called a ‘Grace Period’, a time in which they simply long for and receive the Love but don’t necessary start to worry about the truth and the doing of their soul-healing. They use this time - and it may be weeks, months, years, or many years - to enjoy receiving the Divine Love, and to learn about it: developing their relationship with the Mother and Father, and understanding what’s involved in the soul-healing process. He said that many people will not actually start their soul-healing in earnest until they go to spirit, where they are able to commit themselves to it without the need for earning a living and worrying about their survival and other responsibilities. Following on from what Jesus said, I used to believe that as soon as one started receiving the Divine Love the inner transformation process would begin and that would start ones soul-healing, but now I understand that it doesn’t have to happen this way. One can partake of the Love but that doesn’t necessarily mean that one is launched immediately into their healing. A person can long for the truth and begin the healing of themselves whenever they want – when they feel ready to. And I realised that in fact I had a two year period of grace before my healing began in earnest, and during that time I was mostly understanding what living with the Divine Love was about based on: what was revealed in the Padgett Messages; how the Urantia Book fitted in; and everything else I’d come across in the New Age that I thought was relevant. I believed I was growing in truth during this time but it was nothing compared to how I’ve done so throughout my healing - I was really only advancing my mind. When my soul-healing started everything changed, and I was taken way beyond what I understood was living with the Divine Love based on what is revealed in James Padgett's messages. Now if someone were to ask me about the whole process I would say to them they should by all means long for and receive the Divine Love and enjoy its addition to their soul and life. And then they can start to understand about what’s involved living Divine Love Spirituality – wholly committing themselves to life with the Mother and Father. They can learn about what the soul-healing consists of based on stuff others and I write, and people’s experiences of it. They can learn about their childhood repression reading Alice Millers books as an introduction. And if they are interested in the bigger cosmological picture they can read The Urantia Book. And of course read anything else that is interesting to them. And then when they feel ready, they can start longing for the Truth. Of course one can start immediately to long for the truth and begin the healing process, and then it’s up to you as to how much effort you want to put into it and how much you want to commit to it. To either plunge right in or start off gently feeling your way along as you go. There are always masses of feelings, and particularly bad feelings in our day, that we can acknowledge and start to accept leading us into wanting to uncover the truth of them. And I very much doubt if someone knew to this would be able to embrace and express every bad feeling they felt during the day, particularly when they are working so hard to deny them. So I would advise new people to DLS not to feel pressured to do their soul-healing. It is there to be done one day, but it can wait if it doesn’t appeal. It is a lot to grasp, and it can be very scary and intimidating, for it will take you deep into yourself making you confront all that was, and still is, wrong with your relationships with your parents. So if you love receiving the Love, enjoy your Grace Period, simply partake of the Love and do what you feel you want to do. As I said, there is no hurry and no pressure on you to have to heal yourself, even if it means that you won’t begin until you go to spirit. Jesus also told me that this Grace Period exists also for spirits who find the Divine Love, and many of them take many years exploring all that’s involved in living with the Divine Love: listening to higher spirits speaking about their healing experiences and the sort of commitment they will need to make to do it. He also said that many people having found the Divine Love on Earth may continue their Grace Period into their life in spirit for many years because, as a part of their preparation to doing their soul-healing, they will first have to live many other experiences which spirit life affords and which they were deprived of on Earth. Already longing for Divine Love?
Are you already longing for the Divine Love, but don’t feel like you're really getting anywhere? You came across the Padgett Messages and you started longing for the Divine Love? Wonderful. And you have now been longing and partaking and enjoying the Divine Love coming into your soul for some time? Fantastic. You’ve been partaking of the Love for a year, for thirty years – great; but still you feel there is something more, that somehow you’re not as fulfilled and happy and content about things as you might imagine you should be? I understand. So why do you feel inwardly restless, still looking for answers, still wanting something you can’t quite put your finger on? Why aren’t you completely satisfied now that you’re doing what Jesus and the Celestials told you to do? Why haven't you healed yourself of all sin and error like the messages say? And do you really think it's just a matter of keeping on going as you are doing? Somehow I don't think so, and that's why you've found this article. They are very interesting yet troubling questions, because they naturally make you wonder if you are doing the right thing, if you are indeed on the right path; and if you are, then why still this niggling concern, and why aren’t things happening as you might have liked them to? Why aren’t you healed and full of happiness and light; full of love, having embraced the Divine Love of God? Perhaps you have had many such little wonderings and have up until now rationalised them away. Perhaps you have occasionally felt bad, lost, depressed, angry, unfulfilled and wondering what God wants you to do. And you’ve prayed and longed harder, and even felt things like love, and thought you’ve understood, and felt good for a time, only to slip back into the same old reoccurring niggling feelings of not really knowing for sure if you are going the right way, or doing what God wants you to do. And if you feel any of these things, I can empathize with you, because I too felt them for a number of years, up until I understood about my having to actively take responsibility in the healing of my soul by doing my soul-healing. Now I know this might be hard to take, but if you’re still wondering what it's all about, perhaps you do have it wrong; or maybe not wrong, but you just don’t have it all. Have you thought about the notion that there might be more to it than what Jesus revealed to Mr. James Padgett; and if there is, what do you feel about considering it: will it be hard to open your mind and accept new things even if it means accepting that a lot of what you have thought is wrong? You’ve put all this work and effort into living your spiritual life with the Divine Love, what if it hasn’t really got you anywhere, and that is why you don’t feel satisfied and are still looking for meaning? I can understand your resistance to what I’m saying. No one wants to be told they have been going in the wrong direction. And what they believed was all there was, isn't all there was; and that in fact, they are only just starting at the tip of the iceberg. I’ll try and break the truth as I understand it, as gently as I can. But still, some of it might come as something of a shock. It came as a shock to me, and its come as a shock each time I’ve understood more about it. But still from all I have experienced with the Divine Love it’s what I understand the truth to be. And as you’ll see, the truth is shocking because it makes you face the truth that you are going the wrong way, but when you do understand and accept it; and most importantly, see it for yourself, well, them you know that it’s true and it makes up for everything. You no longer feel bad or like you’ve been wasting your time, as things then start to make sense so you do start to feel fulfilled and that you're getting somewhere. So if you want to keep reading and see what I have to say, this is it: I’m afraid, all you’ve been doing up to now is only further advancing your minds control over you. And that is why you still feel unfulfilled; it’s why you are here reading this. And each time you did one of those little rationalizations to yourself, putting off your bad feeling, praying for the Divine Love to make you feel better and to distract you from your bad feeling - to take your bad feelings away, you were allowing your mind to take over a little bit more. You have been using the Divine Love against yourself to further your self-denial. You might believe that the Divine Love has made you feel better, be a better person, be more loving, kind and caring; and you may feel it’s helped you enormously in your life, and I have no doubt that it has; but still you are feeling unfulfilled and that is what I am trying to address. All these so-called good things might only be nothing more than your mind making you think you are achieving and making good progress. And if you want to keep on living within the confines of your negative mind and will condition, the Divine Love will help to do so in this way. But if you don’t, then the Divine Love will help you to feel bad. Yes, I'll say that again. If you sincerely want to live true and do your soul-healing, then the more Divine Love you receive, the worse you'll actually feel as it helps your soul liberate your repressed childhood feelings. It's contrary to what you might expect would happen. And to take it one step further, if you are receiving Divine Love and NOT feeling bad, then something is very wrong. If you started off longing for the Divine Love and things initially got better, but then seem to have got worse - you are not happy and bad things seem to happen more often making you feel bad, then, believe it or not, you are on the right track with the Divine Love. You are starting to use it as the Father and Mother want it to be used: to help you to find the truth of why you do feel bad. And to find that truth, you first have to feel bad, so They are helping you to do so. And the acceptance of your bad feelings and finding the truth of them is, as you will see, the doing of your soul-healing. So probably without you even knowing it your soul has been leading you down and into your healing path, making you feel disgruntled and unfulfilled, and not allowing your mind to deceive you with lots of false, contrived, so-called good feelings. And I know it does seem on the surface of it to go totally against what you might have believed the Divine Love was meant to do for you. But it’s just that in the Padgett messages, all that is meant for us to do, wasn’t revealed. Jesus only revealed the Divine Love telling us it’s being offered to us and that we can long to God for it. He didn’t go on to say what then happens. However it’s easy to want to believe from the Celestial's messages that all good things happen and mysteriously or magically all your sin and error is taken away as you rapidly progress toward becoming pure and perfect – a Celestial. But the reality is however not that simple. That’s something of fairy-tale, a nice fantasy, and the truth is much harder to digest and live. And the truth involves you having to do your soul-healing; having to uncover the truth for yourself, of why you feel unfulfilled; why you are still looking and wondering what it’s really all about. What is your path and true life’s direction. Why you feel bad. And it's not that what Jesus and the Celestial's say is wrong, it's only that they couldn't reveal to us all that's involved in healing ourselves with the Divine Love, because it wasn't time for Mary Magdalene's side of things to be revealed. What Jesus and the Celestial's say is right: the Divine Love does transform your soul removing all sin and error, only we need to do our part in it, and that involves longing to see the truth of our negative self-denying states of mind and will. And as hard as our healing is to do, it is, as you will see, a hugely valuable experience, and were all our sin and error to simply be taken away because we started to long for the Divine Love, we'd be deprived of this most incredible experience. And then what would be the point to our living in our evil, rebellious, God and self denying states? The whole point is that we are here on this negative minded world so we can experience first hand what it feels like to be evil and then what it feels like to heal ourselves of it. If you want the Divine Love to divine and purify your soul then you’ll have to work with it, help it, all by finding out the truth of why you aren’t pure and why you are imperfect. You need to know what’s going wrong within you on all levels, so you can fix it. The magical wiping away of all sin and error, and suddenly become a Celestial, isn’t going to happen no matter how long you pray for and receive the Love. But of course you can’t just listen to me, you have to follow your own feelings. And if you do that then you will find the truth, and the truth will come to you, and when it does, you will know it is true because it will make sense to you – you’ll feel it does. People and spirits who just embrace the truths and information in the Padgett messages will do just that - with their minds. They might long for the Divine Love, but nothing else will change irrespective of what happens in their minds; they won’t be growing in truth. And one day they will start to wonder what are they doing: why isn’t anything happening, why aren’t they changing as they thought they would. And then they will be ready to long for the Truth. Then they will be ready to come out of their minds and into their hearts. Then they will be ready to start truly living the: Truth of Divine Love. Long for the Divine Love; and Long for the Truth.
God, Please help me to see how fucked I am, and why I am that way; what happened to me during my early childhood to cause me to be living untrue to myself and denying my bad feelings. |
Longing for Divine Love; and,
what about having worries that you won't be able to long - or long correctly?
Jesus has told us in the Padgett Messages that God is offering us Their Divine Love, and all we need do to receive it is long to Them for it. However in the messages no mention is made of how we are to actually long, that is left up to us to work out for ourselves – for each of us individually.
So, how do you long for the Divine Love?
How do you long for anything? You have to really want the Divine Love, WANT IT IN YOUR SOUL, and yearn for it from deep within you. You long for it like there is nothing more in the world you want. And you go to God – however you relate to God – and you tell God of your longing intentions, and what you want; and when you feel you are ready, you long to Them. You long for Them to fill your soul with Their Divine Love.
For the beginner I would advise making time to sit quietly, comfortably, probably with your eyes closed; and when you feel ready, to imagine opening your heart to God and longing to God for Their Divine Love. And if you feel you’d like to say a prayer, to speak to God using your mind to support your longing, by all means do so, but remember: that it’s your longing ONLY that actually invocates the Divine Love – not what you say with your mind.
And when you use your mind to support your longing, speak what you feel rather than what you think. Just be natural and speak to God as you would a friend, or as your Mother and Father. There are no 'right' words, no correct prayer to be said, only your words, and the more real you are saying just what you feel, the more you'll support your longing.
What if you feel bad before you long?
And if you have any problems, any bad feelings, such as you find it very difficult to actually speak to God - you are afraid, and feel guilty because of all the 'bad' things you've done in your life, fearing that God will now punish you; or you feel stupid speaking to someone you can't see; or you don't think They will listen to you believing you are no-body and why should They waste Their time with you; or that there's no point doing it even though you would like to because nothing ever good happens for you, so you'll long but be the only person in the world who They don't give Their Divine Love to. Whatever might be your block, resistance - making you feel bad, begin by owning up to all these negative thoughts, doubts and worries, admitting them all to God. Tell God (and tell your friend if you can) you are feeling them and that you can't long, and that you believe nothing will happen - tell Them everything that you're scared of. And then long, longing without any expectation that anything will happen. Long expecting yourself to fail, telling yourself it's not going to happen - be as negative as you can about it. Don't try to be positive, believing if you are negative then definitely nothing will happen for you; BE AS NEGATIVE AS YOU FEEL, as that is you being TRUE TO YOUR FEELINGS, honouring them and not dishonouring them - honouring yourself and accepting yourself as you truly are. If you are a 'negative' person, that's okay, you have been made to be that way during your early childhood, and the fact remains that you ARE this way, and really there is nothing wrong with that, even though you don't like it, but you can't fight against it, you have to admit and accept and allow yourself to be as you are - which is the first and most important step in your healing. And if. having longed, you don't feel anything, then next time you try, if you still feel full of doubts and worries, then again speak about them to God, and to a friend if that's possible. Always try to own up to any bad feeling and speak about it, it's the only way to deal with the problem. Speak about wanting to uncover the truth of why you feel bad. Ask God to show you why you are feeling bad, and why you have such doubts and worries. And when it still doesn't happen for you; and when for the hundredth time it STILL doesn't happen for you, and you are still full of bad feelings, the same old ones, then just keep speaking about them to God and your friend, keep longing for the truth of them - just KEEP GOING! One day the dam wall will break - but only if you are determined to uncover the truth.
So I’d suggest that once you’ve longed, and said what you want to say (and you can just long and say nothing), then stop longing (as it’s hard to keep longing for longer than a few moments) and wait. Give God time to direct the Holy Spirit to you. And if after a few minutes you don’t feel anything, long again, stop and wait... and long again. And if you do feel something, then simply enjoy God loving you.
What does it feel like receiving the Divine Love?
We can’t actually feel the Divine Love itself, but we can feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. I feel the Holy Spirit like an energy, a density, sometimes a presence, coming about me and then moving into me. It ‘flows’ into me, often starting seemingly above my face, flowing in over my throat and deep into my chest. Sometimes it just envelops me and moves into me from all sides – into my heart, but always somewhere deep down in my ‘heart’, which I take to be the gateway to my soul. And sometimes the Love (via the Holy Spirit) seems to pour, even flood into me, I feel like I’m literally filling up and almost going to explode with it; then other times I feel it very subtly, only a gentle in-flowing, hardly discernible at all. And after I feel like I've received the required ‘quota’ - once I’ve had my fill, the Holy Spirit withdraws leaving me feeling content and good. I usually feel very warm, expansive, secure, loved, nice, content, full - like everything is all right and there is nothing to worry about - happy, and loving of Them. It’s a real experience, and a most wonderful one: to think we can ACTUALLY FEEL God loving us!
Some other things to be aware of:
Long expecting that your longing will be heard and answered and you will receive Their Divine Love. But long with a quiet certainty within you, not with an out of proportion show of expectation. If your mind builds big and great and wonderful expectations of Them loving you, and of the Love coming flooding into your soul, you may be disappointed; it would be better to long expecting nothing to happen: that you won’t even receive Their Love. Long and simply feel what happens to you – each experience is different.
It may take many times of you longing and not feeling anything before you do. It can take time for your inner system to adjust to the subtle feelings of receiving the Love. Often people who are beginning say they didn't really feel anything, and yet it's quite clear from observing them in prayer that they did receive it. Often it's such a subtle, sublime experience that not being used to it, they miss it, and when it's pointed out to them, they say, 'Oh that, yes, I felt that as soon as I sat down and even before I began to actually long!'. Pull in, just be with yourself, and FEEEEEL; feel what's happening to you as you long, and as you sit allowing God to love you. And more often than not, it's that feeling that is the Divine Love coming into you, and with more experience you'll look for, and get used to, feeling that feeling, and it will feel stronger.
You may also find if you are sitting in prayer or meditation for some time and longing and receiving the Divine Love, that your head wants to - of it's own accord - look up, as if looking up into heaven. And at times this upward 'stretching' of your neck and whole spine can get quite severe, but just go with it if that's what you feel you want to do. It's normal energy adjustments going on within you. But if your head and neck arch over too far starting to hurt and you feel uncomfortable, then bring your head back to it's normal position. Just allow yourself to respond as you feel. Sometimes you may even feel as if you are sitting or standing (if you long standing up) in an unseen column of light, so much so, that you can hardly turn your head sideways. And these are only my experiences, they have come and gone and changed over the years. None of them may happen to you, you having your own unique ones.
If you feel you have received the Love, but couldn’t say how you know, then you probably have.
What if you feel bad once you've longed for the Love?
And again, to go over if you feel bad or apprehensive - doubtful or scared - in any way, I can't stress how important it is to honour and accept and not reject and dismiss such bad feelings. What if God doesn’t respond and that shows They don’t love me; or what if I’m doing it the wrong way; or what if I long and nothing happens? As I said above, if you feel such things, then try to accept these bad feelings as much as you can. Speak to someone about them; write about them – all you feel; even tell God your fears, doubts and worries. The more you can accept and bring out your negative expectations and things that you might believe will prevent you from receiving Their Love, the more receptive to it you will be. Remember it’s okay to feel bad and to have millions of fears and doubts at any time, even if you're with God loving you as you receive Their Love. It's okay to feel you're a useless failure, even before you begin. Just long BEING the useless, pathetic failure you feel you are; take this bad feeling you have to God, remembering They already know who you are and all you feel, and no matter how bad you feel about yourself, you are still Their child and They still love you. And if you long sincerely for Their Love, even if you believe you have no chance in hell that They will give it to you, it will still come into your soul - even if you remain totally unaware of it. The only way you can stop it coming into your soul once you’ve longed for it, is if your longing is false, and you don’t actually want it. If you believe you should have it because you believe it's something that might help you; or because it's helped your friend; or because you believe - and even want to believe - all I have written, but still truly within you, you don't want it, then don't long and speak about these beliefs instead. You might not actually be ready for it - yet. And if you can be this honest with yourself, admitting to feeling such 'bad' things, that's okay too - all that you feel is good, it's you, even if it is bad, and you can speak about these feelings, bringing them out to your friend and God - admitting and confessing how 'bad' you are.
Be patient with yourself; give yourself time. Some people always feel something in response to their longing; others rarely do feel something every time they long, but still know they are receiving the Love. And some feel the Divine Love coming into them sometimes in response to their longing, but not other times. And at other times They will send the Holy Spirit to you bringing the Divine Love - loving you - when you haven't even longed to Them for it!
And you can long wherever and whenever the inspiration takes you. You don’t have to sit formally in prayer and long. You can do it walking, lying in bed, in your car, on the loo, in the bath... It’s the beginning of your relationship of love with God, and so it’s what you want to make of it. And so naturally the more often you long, potentially, the more Divine Love you will receive.
And lastly: It’s for you to find YOUR WAY WITH GOD; IT’S YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM, so whatever feels right for you - IS RIGHT FOR YOU!
what about having worries that you won't be able to long - or long correctly?
Jesus has told us in the Padgett Messages that God is offering us Their Divine Love, and all we need do to receive it is long to Them for it. However in the messages no mention is made of how we are to actually long, that is left up to us to work out for ourselves – for each of us individually.
So, how do you long for the Divine Love?
How do you long for anything? You have to really want the Divine Love, WANT IT IN YOUR SOUL, and yearn for it from deep within you. You long for it like there is nothing more in the world you want. And you go to God – however you relate to God – and you tell God of your longing intentions, and what you want; and when you feel you are ready, you long to Them. You long for Them to fill your soul with Their Divine Love.
For the beginner I would advise making time to sit quietly, comfortably, probably with your eyes closed; and when you feel ready, to imagine opening your heart to God and longing to God for Their Divine Love. And if you feel you’d like to say a prayer, to speak to God using your mind to support your longing, by all means do so, but remember: that it’s your longing ONLY that actually invocates the Divine Love – not what you say with your mind.
And when you use your mind to support your longing, speak what you feel rather than what you think. Just be natural and speak to God as you would a friend, or as your Mother and Father. There are no 'right' words, no correct prayer to be said, only your words, and the more real you are saying just what you feel, the more you'll support your longing.
What if you feel bad before you long?
And if you have any problems, any bad feelings, such as you find it very difficult to actually speak to God - you are afraid, and feel guilty because of all the 'bad' things you've done in your life, fearing that God will now punish you; or you feel stupid speaking to someone you can't see; or you don't think They will listen to you believing you are no-body and why should They waste Their time with you; or that there's no point doing it even though you would like to because nothing ever good happens for you, so you'll long but be the only person in the world who They don't give Their Divine Love to. Whatever might be your block, resistance - making you feel bad, begin by owning up to all these negative thoughts, doubts and worries, admitting them all to God. Tell God (and tell your friend if you can) you are feeling them and that you can't long, and that you believe nothing will happen - tell Them everything that you're scared of. And then long, longing without any expectation that anything will happen. Long expecting yourself to fail, telling yourself it's not going to happen - be as negative as you can about it. Don't try to be positive, believing if you are negative then definitely nothing will happen for you; BE AS NEGATIVE AS YOU FEEL, as that is you being TRUE TO YOUR FEELINGS, honouring them and not dishonouring them - honouring yourself and accepting yourself as you truly are. If you are a 'negative' person, that's okay, you have been made to be that way during your early childhood, and the fact remains that you ARE this way, and really there is nothing wrong with that, even though you don't like it, but you can't fight against it, you have to admit and accept and allow yourself to be as you are - which is the first and most important step in your healing. And if. having longed, you don't feel anything, then next time you try, if you still feel full of doubts and worries, then again speak about them to God, and to a friend if that's possible. Always try to own up to any bad feeling and speak about it, it's the only way to deal with the problem. Speak about wanting to uncover the truth of why you feel bad. Ask God to show you why you are feeling bad, and why you have such doubts and worries. And when it still doesn't happen for you; and when for the hundredth time it STILL doesn't happen for you, and you are still full of bad feelings, the same old ones, then just keep speaking about them to God and your friend, keep longing for the truth of them - just KEEP GOING! One day the dam wall will break - but only if you are determined to uncover the truth.
So I’d suggest that once you’ve longed, and said what you want to say (and you can just long and say nothing), then stop longing (as it’s hard to keep longing for longer than a few moments) and wait. Give God time to direct the Holy Spirit to you. And if after a few minutes you don’t feel anything, long again, stop and wait... and long again. And if you do feel something, then simply enjoy God loving you.
What does it feel like receiving the Divine Love?
We can’t actually feel the Divine Love itself, but we can feel the presence of the Holy Spirit. I feel the Holy Spirit like an energy, a density, sometimes a presence, coming about me and then moving into me. It ‘flows’ into me, often starting seemingly above my face, flowing in over my throat and deep into my chest. Sometimes it just envelops me and moves into me from all sides – into my heart, but always somewhere deep down in my ‘heart’, which I take to be the gateway to my soul. And sometimes the Love (via the Holy Spirit) seems to pour, even flood into me, I feel like I’m literally filling up and almost going to explode with it; then other times I feel it very subtly, only a gentle in-flowing, hardly discernible at all. And after I feel like I've received the required ‘quota’ - once I’ve had my fill, the Holy Spirit withdraws leaving me feeling content and good. I usually feel very warm, expansive, secure, loved, nice, content, full - like everything is all right and there is nothing to worry about - happy, and loving of Them. It’s a real experience, and a most wonderful one: to think we can ACTUALLY FEEL God loving us!
Some other things to be aware of:
Long expecting that your longing will be heard and answered and you will receive Their Divine Love. But long with a quiet certainty within you, not with an out of proportion show of expectation. If your mind builds big and great and wonderful expectations of Them loving you, and of the Love coming flooding into your soul, you may be disappointed; it would be better to long expecting nothing to happen: that you won’t even receive Their Love. Long and simply feel what happens to you – each experience is different.
It may take many times of you longing and not feeling anything before you do. It can take time for your inner system to adjust to the subtle feelings of receiving the Love. Often people who are beginning say they didn't really feel anything, and yet it's quite clear from observing them in prayer that they did receive it. Often it's such a subtle, sublime experience that not being used to it, they miss it, and when it's pointed out to them, they say, 'Oh that, yes, I felt that as soon as I sat down and even before I began to actually long!'. Pull in, just be with yourself, and FEEEEEL; feel what's happening to you as you long, and as you sit allowing God to love you. And more often than not, it's that feeling that is the Divine Love coming into you, and with more experience you'll look for, and get used to, feeling that feeling, and it will feel stronger.
You may also find if you are sitting in prayer or meditation for some time and longing and receiving the Divine Love, that your head wants to - of it's own accord - look up, as if looking up into heaven. And at times this upward 'stretching' of your neck and whole spine can get quite severe, but just go with it if that's what you feel you want to do. It's normal energy adjustments going on within you. But if your head and neck arch over too far starting to hurt and you feel uncomfortable, then bring your head back to it's normal position. Just allow yourself to respond as you feel. Sometimes you may even feel as if you are sitting or standing (if you long standing up) in an unseen column of light, so much so, that you can hardly turn your head sideways. And these are only my experiences, they have come and gone and changed over the years. None of them may happen to you, you having your own unique ones.
If you feel you have received the Love, but couldn’t say how you know, then you probably have.
What if you feel bad once you've longed for the Love?
And again, to go over if you feel bad or apprehensive - doubtful or scared - in any way, I can't stress how important it is to honour and accept and not reject and dismiss such bad feelings. What if God doesn’t respond and that shows They don’t love me; or what if I’m doing it the wrong way; or what if I long and nothing happens? As I said above, if you feel such things, then try to accept these bad feelings as much as you can. Speak to someone about them; write about them – all you feel; even tell God your fears, doubts and worries. The more you can accept and bring out your negative expectations and things that you might believe will prevent you from receiving Their Love, the more receptive to it you will be. Remember it’s okay to feel bad and to have millions of fears and doubts at any time, even if you're with God loving you as you receive Their Love. It's okay to feel you're a useless failure, even before you begin. Just long BEING the useless, pathetic failure you feel you are; take this bad feeling you have to God, remembering They already know who you are and all you feel, and no matter how bad you feel about yourself, you are still Their child and They still love you. And if you long sincerely for Their Love, even if you believe you have no chance in hell that They will give it to you, it will still come into your soul - even if you remain totally unaware of it. The only way you can stop it coming into your soul once you’ve longed for it, is if your longing is false, and you don’t actually want it. If you believe you should have it because you believe it's something that might help you; or because it's helped your friend; or because you believe - and even want to believe - all I have written, but still truly within you, you don't want it, then don't long and speak about these beliefs instead. You might not actually be ready for it - yet. And if you can be this honest with yourself, admitting to feeling such 'bad' things, that's okay too - all that you feel is good, it's you, even if it is bad, and you can speak about these feelings, bringing them out to your friend and God - admitting and confessing how 'bad' you are.
Be patient with yourself; give yourself time. Some people always feel something in response to their longing; others rarely do feel something every time they long, but still know they are receiving the Love. And some feel the Divine Love coming into them sometimes in response to their longing, but not other times. And at other times They will send the Holy Spirit to you bringing the Divine Love - loving you - when you haven't even longed to Them for it!
And you can long wherever and whenever the inspiration takes you. You don’t have to sit formally in prayer and long. You can do it walking, lying in bed, in your car, on the loo, in the bath... It’s the beginning of your relationship of love with God, and so it’s what you want to make of it. And so naturally the more often you long, potentially, the more Divine Love you will receive.
And lastly: It’s for you to find YOUR WAY WITH GOD; IT’S YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH THEM, so whatever feels right for you - IS RIGHT FOR YOU!
Prayers for Divine Love
Mother and Father: I long and pray for Your Divine Love. Please fill my heart and soul with Your Love. Please love me with all Your heart. And please make me feel loved by You. Please love me. Please make me feel loved. Please help me feel that I am Your child. Please help me feel that You are indeed my loving Parents. Mother and Father, I want to know myself so I can know You - please help me to. And please help me to do so through love. Please bless my soul with Your Divine Love. Please give me that love and truth I ask for. Please help me feel loved and to live true. I want to feel loved and I want to love, my Heavenly Mother and Father, please help me. My Mother and Father, please love me, and make me feel loved by You. |
Prayers for the Truth
Mother and Father: I long and pray to You to help me see the truth You want me to see. Please help me to uncover it through my feelings. Please help me to feel those feelings I need to feel to find the truth. Please help me live true to my feelings. Please help me to see the truth of why I feel so angry. Please help me understand why I feel like shit - so miserable today. Please help me express and speak about all I feel. Please bring up my repressed feelings so I can see the truth of them. Please help me live true to myself, so I can live true to You. Please help me to long for the Truth in the right way. Please help me to know the truth when it's revealed to me. Please help me to see my untruth. Please help me to see how fucked I am, and why I am that way; what happened to me during my early childhood to cause me to be living untrue to myself and deny my bad feelings. |
What do you do when everything you do no longer makes you feel good?