My mother believes she’s the best, better than her children.
Me and DLS
In lake Tanganyika, Africa, live beautiful little fresh water tropical fish. Some of them live in empty snail shells; others find a crack in a rock to call home; and others find a hidden nook or cranny, their territory to defend against all new comers. When I was younger I loved breeding some of these exotic little fish. I’d set up my aquarium with white rocks, fine white sand, and lots of beautiful shells. And usually they quickly adopted their new home and set about breeding a family. I loved watching and breeding these little fish. I would spend hours in front of their little world like a god caring for his little children.
I was their master controller. I fed them, kept their water chemistry to their liking; kept their environment clean. I wanted them to be happy – as happy as little fish in a tank could be. And their happiness rewarded me with a bigger happy family. They were always so willing and eager to please. When the conditions were right they laid their eggs, lovingly tended them, and protected their young. This was, I have since realised through my soul-healing, how I wanted my family to be. I wanted everyone to be happy. I wanted us to all love one another. And I thought we did. But my spiritual progress has shown me the truth. And the truth came as a shock.
So now I know that because I wasn’t as happy in my family and childhood as I thought I was, I tried to make up for such loss by trying to make happy families with my fish.
I present DLS as an expression of my spiritual growth. If what I have experienced helps you, I’m glad – it’s certainly helped me!
Prior to discovering the Truths of Divine Love, God was to me an impersonal Creator. He was behind all things but not someone I could get to know. I was only interested in the latest New Age channeled information. I didn’t properly understand that to grow spirituality, from ones soul, and not just play around in ones mind, you had to get serious about wanting the Truth. Really wanting it. Wanting to live true to yourself, life, and God; and wanting to live nothing else. And wanting to do it Mary and Jesus’ way, so you can get to know God personally as your Heavenly Mother and Father, as they do.
When I started to long directly to God – Them – for Their Divine Love, EVERYTHING changed. My spirit guides (with whom I could communicate) came to me and said: ‘Now we can get serious. Finally you want to know and live the Truth of God according to the Truths of Divine Love’. They even changed their names being able to reveal their true identities! I felt like I’d crossed over some invisible line. I was now on a new path with all new things to learn. It was, so I was to discover, the end to all I’d believed and thought was important.
Having discovered the Truths of Divine Love in the book Angelic Revelations of Divine Truth (a selection of messages from James Padgett's Messages); and having done what Jesus says and longed to God for (His) Their Divine Love and partaken of it, I knew there was no other way. This was it! What I’d unconsciously been looking for.
In my communications with spirits I wanted to write with some of the Celestial spirits mentioned in the ‘Angelics’ (the name we affectionately called the Angelic Revelations of Divine Truth - a book composed of Padgett Messages). And they complied with my wishes. Jesus too began to speak to me, and I wrote mostly affirming the truths he’d revealed in the Padgett Messages. Then the Heavenly Father started speaking to me. And then quite a few years later I met the – our – Heavenly Mother. And around this time, Mary Magdalene also came and introduced herself to me, telling me she wanted me to understand my relationship with the Feminine Aspect of God – with the Heavenly Mother; and that she is Jesus’ soul-mate, with her role being to reveal the Heavenly Mother; and what my Childhood Repression and Soul-Healing was all about.
While this was all happening I also met Marion, and she, being totally committed to the Truths of Divine Love and trying to live true to herself and the Father, helped me to understand about the importance of honouring my feelings, and in particular, my bad feelings. I was very shut off from my feelings and at first didn’t even know what she was talking about, but with her guidance, and seemingly endless patience, I gradually began to get more in touch with my bad feelings, and so myself. She helped me understand how my bad feelings were all originating in my early childhood and that if I could see the truth of them - how and why they were in me - I could be healed of them. Together Marion and I, with help from Mary and Jesus and the Mother and Father, worked on acknowledging our bad feelings, accepting them and expressing them, all whilst longing for the truth of them. It was explained to us that this was our soul-healing and we were healing our childhood repression, and it was able to happen to us because we wanted to know the whole truth, and wanted the Divine Love to transform us - to heal us of all our imperfection. We wanted to heal all our wrong ways, beliefs and behaviour, all so we could live in perfect harmony and at-one with God.
I’ve been praying for, and partaking of, the Divine Love for about 15 years, and Jesus and Mary (and I couldn't be more grateful to them) have taught me many things about themselves, their universe, God, and our minds negative control over our feelings, and myself. And all of this I would like to now pass on to those people who are interested. Asking for and receiving the Divine Love is easy and wonderful to do. Doing your soul-healing to heal your childhood repression is much harder and far more challenging; however, if you sincerely want to heal everything in you that is not right: see the whole truth of yourself and live God’s Will, you won’t be let down.
The key to life is being able to LIVE TRUE TO YOURSELF, and our feelings are the way to achieve this. They are our indicators, for if we feel bad then we know we don’t want to go that way. Our only difficulty is, that most of our bad feelings we’ve been made to ignore, treat with contempt, suppress and keep repressed - we don’t even know that many of the things we are doing make us feel bad. The Divine Love helps us to see and feel.
I highly recommend living with the – your – Father and Mother and Their Divine Love. It is certainly a completely new way of life. I sincerely believe it can be the fulfilment of all your spiritual dreams and aspirations. And I can guarantee in no way will you be let down or disappointed if you really want to live the way Mary and Jesus are showing us. Initially it might not be what you expect, however, the further you go the more you will understand that it is exactly what you want, and the more it will appeal to you.
Divine Love Spirituality. A Religion of Light: Truth, Love, and Spirit. One, which if you feel ready to live, will constantly amaze you with all you discover about yourself, your life, and God. It sure amazes me!
Okay, now for all those other meaningful bits of information – you know, so you can put me into some kind of context being able to say: ah, now I see where he’s coming from.
Well, I grew up in Melbourne (I no longer live there - yeah!) – that’s Melbourne Australia. As soon as I finished university I had to split to London (Melbourne was just sooooo boring) – live in the real world – and tried to make a go of earning a living in the financial markets. The October ’87 stock market crash threw me out as a failure and I turned my attention to spiritual things. I was desperately unhappy – what was my life coming to?’ – and I was scared of most things. And my girlfriend thing wasn’t happening as I wanted it to – she was already married!
I was introduced to spirit channeling in the New Age. Loved it, couldn’t get enough of it, thought that the spirits might at least have a better grasp on life and could possibly help me sort mine out. I wanted to know what was right: the right way to live according to… I wanted to know the truth, not that I had the slightest idea what truth was back them. Oh yeah, I was in my late twenties when all this was going on - going through my good 'ol Saturn Return. Then I met my ‘higher’ spirit guide, realised I too could channel, found my new life... ha, ha!
I left London, went to L.A, met lots of spiritual people and channelers, came back to Melbourne, and my brother whom I’d lived and traveled with, and who'd stayed on in America, upon his return to Melbourne, brought back the Angelic Revelations of Divine Truth: channeled spirit messages from Jesus and other spirits by Mr. James E. Padgett, and I was sold. I dumped the New Age stuff, Jesus’ ‘second coming’ of truth was leagues above and beyond it; this was the real thing!
And naturally I started speaking with Jesus. Naturally? Of course, the most easiest thing in the world… yeah right! No really, it just happened. I discovered I could easily write with spirits. Now sceptics about spirit writing, and possibly some members of the church who’d say I was in league with the devil, might say it’s all only my mind, some other part of me making it all up, nothing more than a fantasy, and if that is so, well FANTASTIC! – because it’s sure helped me in my life. The spirits have helped me grow in truth, have opened my eyes to my feeling-denial; helped me face the hard truth about that, and generally helped me understand what has happened to me these past years culminating in what I am presenting to you: Divine Love Spirituality. And now I am happier and no longer so scared; and believe it or not, I actually feel like I know what life’s about for me, and I love these new feelings. And that is how I feel on a good day. On a bad day when more of my repressed childhood yuk bad feelings are up in me and I feel like shit... well... well, YUK!
So having embraced Jesus’ message in the Padgett Messages: I longed to God, my Heavenly Father, for His Divine Love and in it flowed and it felt wonderful. Then some years passed, but although the Divine Love made me feel good, still overall I was feeling bad. My life still wasn’t happening for me – yet more failed relationships! And gradually I began to feel something was missing, perhaps there was more for me to understand, something beyond my reach. Enter Marion. And: Mary Magdalene, and my Heavenly Mother. Now it all began to make sense, everything became balanced. I’d found the missing link; I had the key: the feminine aspects of truth and love had arrived!
Marion joined me in my spiritual quest… or was it that I joined her in hers? Anyway, we decided to help each other, did the whole thing, even got married. Then she started to question me about my feelings. Ah – feelings, now what are they? Are they something that’s important?
And this led me – as she was already leading herself – into the search to find out what hidden, repressed feelings were in me. She’d had a shockingly hard and severe unloving childhood and family; she was paying the price and it had led her to understand that the key to herself lay buried in the masses of hidden unexpressed feelings she was denying. This sounded good to me: I too wanted to unlock my repressed feelings. I would gladly follow her and I did. And I got a hell of lot more than I bargained for.
I committed myself to uncovering the truth (with Marion's help), to what was really going in inside me, and what I’m really all about, through the ongoing liberation of my repressed childhood feelings – and wow, it really works! It's incredible, you use your bad feelings as the way into yourself, expressing how bad you feel, allowing yourself to feel as bad as you can, stopping yourself from denying your bad feelings (that’s the really hard part); and as your bad feeling acceptance and expression eventually takes you back into your forgotten childhood, low and behold, up comes the truth. Magically, seemingly from nowhere, there it is within you. From some unseen part within you (your soul), suddenly the truth bubbles into your consciousness, and when it does you SEE, and you KNOW. And you see and know that what you're seeing and knowing is TRUE! And has it open my eyes!
And now at 49, Marion (59 ) and we are seeing the truth of ourselves. And hopefully will continue to do so for the rest of eternity.
So there you have my story. I love speaking with the spirits. My healing is the bloody hardest thing I’ve ever done. I love the truth coming to me and living it – all my questions about life are finally being answered. I love Mary and Jesus and my Heavenly Mother and Father. I hated my pre-healing life although I told myself every day how much I loved it. But now I’m starting anew and love is becoming something that feels very real.
And for reasons I still don’t fully understand as yet, I want to make what I call Divine Love Spirituality: essentially all the truth, information and understanding I live, available to anyone else who might be interested. And just because it’s me – all me, and DLS is yet to become an ‘us’ or a ‘we’ – don’t let that put you off. It all has to start with one person, right? – and that’s You!
I contrived Divine Love Spirituality, along with a ‘little help from spirit’.
I wanted to understand how to live a true life. I wanted to know how to live true with God. I wanted to know what was right.
I didn’t have a clue about anything before I began. I only new I was unhappy; unsatisfied with my life and ‘something’ within it or within me seemed to be controlling things taking me mostly in a direction I didn’t want or intend to go in.
I tried to make life happen for myself; I tried to make it be how I wanted it to be, but I failed. I had to give up and admit defeat. Then I had to look for a new way.
As I started to investigate all the New Age had to offer I found I was particularly attracted to spirit communication. I figured spirits might have a better understanding about life and how to properly live it. They having been on Earth and now living ‘over there’, with surely, a greater and 'higher' perspective.
As I started my ‘spiritual journey’ a ‘quest’ soon developed. I wanted to find all that I considered to be right, true and livable; I wanted to find the truth, and then pool together all the sources of relevant information developing my own understanding of the way of things: both on Earth and in spirit.
I was guided, as we all are, and Divine Love Spiritually – The Religion of Light and the Faith of Divine Love is the result.
The later part of my journey - which helped me define Divine Love Spirituality, helping me live it so I know it can be lived - I have shared with my wife Marion. Marion has been just as instrumental in the development of all that Divine Love Spirituality is, even though she prefers to remain ‘the quite – or perhaps at times, no so quiet – voice in the back ground’.
Divine Love Spirituality is based on Marion's and my experiences of living with God’s Divine Love and the doing of our soul-healing, inclusive of healing our childhood repression.
From our experiences I can affirm that DLS is wholly livable, something you can do as Marion and I are doing. And the great thing about it is, that it’s all up to you as to what and how you live it, it’s not dependent on anyone else, and there is no formal structure or way you have to be obedient to. It’s not about being told what to do, it’s for you to want to take the steps as they are naturally presented to you.
There is a lot to it, and it will require many new ways of looking at things, however underlying it all is the simple truth: that you are a child of your loving Heavenly Parents, and if you want to live as perfectly as They have created you to do, now you can. Finally the truths of how to do this are being made available to us. I find it all very exciting and I hope you will too.
According to The Urantia Book, humanity has been in universal Rebellion for over 500,000 years and in universal Default for over 35,000 years. All in all a lot of time for us to become as fucked up as we are. And so a lot for us to heal when we begin our soul-healing and ascension of truth.
‘Now James, when you grow up you can find out what’s wrong with the world and how to fix it. And then you can tell your Gran.’
‘James, why is your mother doing that? Find out would you.’
So James went out to find out what is wrong with the world, all so he can report back to his Gran being the good boy that she says he is. All so he and his Gran will know how to fix it.
And DLS is what I found out. And healing your childhood repression is how to fix the world by fixing yourself.
If you want to live a true and real spirituality, if you want to live the TRUTH, first you have start with healing yourself - uncovering the truth of - your negative state, of all that’s wrong with you. Anything else, any other spiritual system or technique, is only helping you run away from this truth.
The sad and tragic truth we discover through our childhood repression healing is: The False Teachers, and the Evil Ones who so constantly surround us, the Devil and Satan, are: our parents. Our parents are whom we fear most.
And, there is FAR more to bad parenting than being treated violently.
It comes as a rude shock to suddenly realise all that you are is wrong, and that the way you’ve been going is going in the wrong direction.
There is no place for man-made religion if you want to live the true religion of self. And living true to yourself is not a selfish way to be, not selfish as experienced in the sense of keeping yourself separate from life by denying feelings. The religion of self is the one true way of self-expression. If you deny all you really feel then you are being selfish. Being freely giving is freely expressing all you feel - being your whole true self.
If your spiritual or religious system says you’re not evil and 'they' are evil, those people over there, then one day you’ll have to wake up to the truth of it and the truth of yourself.
We’ve been taught to look to the established religions as being the true ways to God. But they’ll only take you further into your feeling-denial, firmly ensuring you keep all your childhood repression in place.
The universal decree is that all that is wrong, false and evil will be destroyed; it’s only a matter of time before we can kiss our negative, evil, man-made life, goodbye. This being done as people wake up to the truth of themselves.
This is what I think
If you really do want the truth, then 'doing' DLS will give it to you. It will help you understand it, and best of all, it will help you uncover it for yourself.
All other religions and spiritual systems will only lead you away from the truth - they are all truth-denying. They may have a smattering of truths within them, but they won't do you any good (unless you want to further your negative self-denying state), because overall the system is anti-truth. It's anti-truth, and so anti-you, irrespective of what it tells you and makes you believe.
We are conceived into a negative mind and will state of being. We take it on from our parents by default, they force us to live it, and we merrily, or not so merrily, try to make it our truth and the right way to live as adults. But it's all wrong. The life we live is going or working against us, and in the end, no matter who you are, you're going to feel bad - it's no longer going to 'work' for you.
And looking around at other religions and spiritual systems isn't going to help you because they are all a product of the negative, being anti-truth. So they will only lead you down dead ends. They might seem to help you to begin with, but at some point you'll tire of them, they won't 'do it for you'.
And when you reach this point, be it here whilst you're own Earth or when you're in spirit, then, you may be ready for DLS.
And if you are, if you read all my stuff and it doesn't turn you away, if it actually rings something of a bell within you, then, you may be ready to start longing for the Divine Love, and longing for the Truth.
And when you starting longing for the Truth and the Love, then, you might be ready to do your childhood repression healing to heal your negative state.
And if you venture into this, then you will discover for yourself, just how wrong all the other religions and spiritual systems are, and then you might be able to start living true. True to yourself, nature and God.
And then, when you've healed all your negative state and uncovered all the truth of your childhood repression, then, you may at last feel happy and loved.
And then, you'll know what it has all been about.
What I really think...
Seriously, if you want to live true then there is no other way than what DLS offers you. It’s at the end of the line. It’s what we all should be living whether it’s called DLS or not. It’s the right and true way. All else is wrong and false. All else will only lead you further from yourself deeper into the untruth. It’s the only thing to help you come back to your true self, being done through your feelings by letting go and giving up the control of your mind.
If you want to make sense of life DLS will help you. Everything else might entertain and amuse you, deluding you into believing it is helping you to grow in truth; heal you and gain a greater spiritual awareness, but it’s all crap. And the further you go pushing into it, moving down your feeling-denying negative path, the harder it will be, and longer it will take, to come back.
You’ve been launched into life heading in the wrong direction, yet you’ve been told it is the right way to be - and you're using your will as hard as you can to drive yourself into oblivion. You’ve been told a lie - you’ve been legged over. And one day you’ll have to wake up to all the pain and misery it’s causing you, and then it will be time to turn around and head back in the opposite direction.
Our world, your life, is false. It’s not loving. Look at how we treat nature, how we treat our own children; look at how we deny our own bad feelings.
So if you do sincerely want to live true, then you’re going to have to end it as you are, and find a whole new way to live. DLS is a whole new way.
And what I really really think is...
Everything else is wrong. Living true to your feelings is the only way to live truth to yourself.
Don't bother with anything else unless you want to further your negative state.
If you want out, DLS will help you.
And what I really really really feel is...
Everything else other than DLS is crap, so don't bother with it.
And of course I feel this! And finally I've said it as plainly as I can - phew!
What I think about other spiritual and religious systems
New age, Old age, Eastern, - anything other than Christian - don't waste your time with them if you sincerely want to grow in truth, they'll only lead you deeper into your negative state, no matter how liberating, different or inspiring they might seem. They are all only concerned with beliefs, which will delude you into believing you are living a better and happier life, but it's all just giving your mind greater power over you.
Christian - Closer to the truth only because of including Jesus, however all of the above still applies because the Christian systems don't allow you to directly access Jesus' Spirit of Truth, and you need it if you want to grow and ascend in truth. Also, as you need Mary Magdalene's Spirit of Truth, and as the Christian faiths deny her, being involved with them will only increase the control your mind has over you, furthering your negative self- and feeling-denial state.
Divine Love based only on the Padgett Messages - by still denying Mary Magdalene you'll never get anywhere so far as growing in truth is concerned. You may advance your minds control over you, and you may partake of the Divine Love, but it won't be able to help you heal your childhood repression and negative state until you also willingly embrace the feminine aspect of truth.
If you dismiss and deny one feeling, one part of yourself, then you are not only denying your true self, which is bad enough, but you are also denying all of Creation - and God.
Our feelings are the way, NOT our minds. If you’re stopping yourself feel one feeling, you are stopping yourself from finding your way.
Of course, everything in the negative state can help you - only it won't help you grow in truth.
When anyone says they are looking for the truth, really they should be wanting to find the truth of themselves.
Medicine doesn’t care about you. Nobody wants to know what’s really wrong. We just want to put a band aide over the problem or take pills or cut it out - we don't want to look deeper into our feelings so we can uncover the truth of what's really going on within us - and why.
It comes down to wanting to know the truth of all your shit.
When you seriously want to know it, and are prepared to take whatever steps are necessary to uncover it, then you are ready to grow in truth
You might feel you sincerely want the truth, and that your endeavours to find it are true, yet how do you know that such things are right when you’ve been formed and grown up in all that is wrong and untrue. How do you know your longing for the truth is not as fucked up as everything else you do in your life.
It’s up to us whether we want to live true or not. The problem is, most of what we’ve been led to believe as being the truth, or how to find it, is not true, and what we shouldn’t do if we are sincerely wanting to be true.
If you don’t feel or believe you are fucked up, then one day you’ll wake up to the truth about this too.
We have absolutely no idea about what life’s all about. And how can we when all we know is wrong, untrue and based on the negative.
Advancing your negative state:
If you are not working on trying to express all your feelings to find the truth of them, then you will be advancing your negative feeling-denying state - your evilness, no matter what system you're involved in or not involved in.
And if this is how you want to live, then certainly every spiritual and religious system will offer you great opportunities to further advance your self-denying condition.
But when you've had enough of never feeling entirely satisfied always still with that bit within you that feels unfulfilled, always longing for something more, then it may be time to stop advancing your negative state.
When you’re ready your soul will start your waking up process, and resist it as you may, still one day you’ll have to embrace it and start honouring your bad feelings.
Your negative state and your childhood repression:
If you don't believe you are living in a negative state, and that you're suffering from your childhood repression, then DLS won't be able to do anything for you. And you may as well keep going investigating and participating in all the other religious and spiritual systems.
Look, seriously, we have no idea about the horrible, rotten condition we're living in. Living in an insane world that's full of nuclear weapons that could blow up any moment. Yet why are we this way. And as regular psychology hasn't any idea, vaguely aware of something to do with our childhood and early life, then we can only look into ourselves to uncover the truth for yourselves.
Our negative state is endemic.
The primitive people at least lived as true as they could to their fear and anti-truth lives. We don’t, we don’t have a clue. We’re so deluded, superficial and stupefied.
All your problems begin with your parenting, your family being your first ‘spiritual’ system. Throughout your forming years you develop your beliefs and behaviour patterns, all which have only served to keep you in a negative unloving state. And all of which one day you will have to heal yourself of, this being the only way you will ever feel truly happy and loved.
For more on understanding this, the key to your spiritual development, you will need to understand about childhood repression - see my books and links pages.
Whilst in and of your evil negative love-denying state, parenting is the most evil thing you can do.
Being yelled at to ‘STOP THAT!, DON’T DO THAT!, DON’T SAY THAT BAD THING!, YOU’RE BAD!’, is soul-destroying. And to do it repeatedly to a young child - you can’t be more wrong, bad and evil. It kills the child's ability to freely express itself, therefore causing its childhood repression and dooming it to its life of feeling - and so self - denial.
And you are this child.
It's happened to all of us.
Some of us think we’re being loving telling our child off, but we’re fucked, and we couldn’t be more unloving.
You are as fucked as your parents have made you be, as fucked as they were. And just because you have a nice false exterior and everything is all smiles, happy and full of love, doesn’t mean that what’s going on deeper - and much deeper - within you, is the same happy smiles beaming with love.
Who are the evil ones in your personal life? I’m sorry to say it, but it’s your parents. As you will discover through your soul-healing.
If you feel you are okay, then why are you here reading this?
All those horrible words no one wants to hear: wrong, bad, evil, nasty, unloving, uncaring, unfeeling are all you’re going to hear as you move deeper into the truth of yourself.
Crack the facade and let all your yuk out.
If you don’t take the initiative, sooner or later it’s going to happen anyway.