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How was your Christmas and New Year?
We don't 'do' Christmas and New Years. My week was full of pain and yet more deep anger coming up. I did see lots more truth about how fucked I am and how unloved I feel by my parents. Great fun… however it is what I want. I want to heal myself and become true. I've added a pdf to my free books page that contains all the text (no images) of my Introduction to Divine Love Spirituality and main Divine Love Spirituality websites.
Just in case you would like a copy of all the information on the websites. Divine Love Spirituality is way ahead of its time. Technically about 1000 years. It's beginning now, the new revelation, however it's going to take about that long before it's given the consideration and recognition it deserves.
All the mind stuff about DLS can be learnt and understood relatively easily, however it's the childhood repression part, looking into and having to face the cold hard truth of your bad feelings, that's the tough one to embrace. That's what's going to take time to be accepted: the truth of ones relationship with ones parents. And the truth of ones relationship with oneself. Marion’s feeling very sad having to give up her relationship with the magpies. And it is the end, she’s not going to relent giving in unable to end it. She’s progressed too far now within herself for that. And she wants to be true, and true in all her relationships. Yet she’s still sad it is over. However the relationship was not truly loving, it was simply fulfilling one of her desperate needs for love. So all such relationships have to go, which she understands, and is now able to let go... but she still feels very sad. And as she expresses these sad feelings, so they are bringing to light more truth about all her relationships, and how none of them have been right and true. All because of her initial relationships with her parents being untrue. And really she’s feeling very sad that she couldn’t have had loving relationships with her parents.
Oh what a lovely surprise, there he was sitting happily on a branch of the dead tree in our front garden. I have dreamed of seeing one but never thought I would because I couldn’t see I’d ever be near water in the bush where they are supposedly found. Yet there he was! He flew down three times to eat insects off the grass, then flew over to have a bath in the shallow dish. He’d launch himself at it, crashing in, sliding along the bottom getting covered in water, then up and out onto the little twig nearby to preen himself. Then after half a dozen crash-dives and more preening, spreading his beautiful blue wings and wriggling his short tail, he was off over the road.
If you do your healing, you’re never going to be the same again - which is after all I imagine why you’d want to do it. You don’t like how you are, it makes you feel bad, and so you do your healing to find out why you are feeling bad, why you are as you are; and when you uncover the truth of it, you’ll change, heal, and that’s what you want, as then you’ll feel better. It’s understandable, however please consider: You are stepping out into the unknown, no one else has done it, and you might find you are all alone. And very alone, with no one you can relate to, no one who will understand you, and no one wanting to listen to all you’re going through. And everything will change... so do you want that? Nothing will stay the same, and conceivably all your relationships might end. They also might not end, but they will change. But if you do sincerely want to live true, well there’s nothing else but to do it... and see what happens. The good part being, as you progress and even though you’ll feel worse and worse, you’ll also feel better and better about what you’re doing, about the progress you’re making within yourself. I feel so alone, no one understands, not even Marion. No one understands how bad I feel - no one, except God, but what good does that do. And I don’t want to be part of life out there, it’s all horrible, all living untrue, but I can’t leave it and separate myself as much as I’d like - I can’t do anything. And I feel scared, always so scared. I feel so unloved with no one to love me. I feel so bad, always so bad, more bad than I could ever have imagined I could feel. And it just goes on and on, hardly any let up. And yet I know, I can’t go back, I have to keep going, as there is nowhere for me to go anyway. Two days of feeling good and I'm back into it - into feeling bad, the pressures on again.
Marion's undertaking the Big One. This is huge for us both. She's been feeding the birds meat for years, the magpies being her beloved favourites. We've known it's wrong to do, but it's been a compulsion for us both - and especially for her. And she has worked on it and worked on it over the years, so many bad feelings all tied up in it. All to do with her self-loathing and having to be a servant - now to the birds, just as her parents made her be to them. We've both worked through our yuk over the years to this point of being left with our deep compulsions, this being Marion's biggest, and we've wondered how are we going to heal them, when we know we can't change ourselves, we can't stop doing them, they having too much power and control over us. The Mother and Father have told me they will go, as will everything if we keep going: keep honouring, expressing and longing for the truth of our feelings. So we've kept going. Marion has been relentless in her determination to keep speaking about how bad she feels, and now, today, she's decided she can stop feeding the birds. So she's literally sweating it out, and we're both expressing all we feel and longing for the truth, and it's coming and she's determined to follow through - No More Meat! And as she's known it's an affectation and affliction of hers based on her deep feeling of feeling so unloved, so to be able to give it up… This will be a major turning point for her - for us both. And it's so hard, yet also so exciting, to see if we really can actually heal our root causes of such compulsive addictions. And if we can, then l'll know anything is possible with our healing. And really we have to be able to heal them, but all when the time is right, all so we can finally set ourselves free. Lately I've been posting on The God Light forum as zuimon. And that led me to what happened yesterday, my big: I don't have to be the worlds teacher, insight. And it's the end of my posting elsewhere other than the occasional post on Before It's News, which is more about a way to get my articles out for the search engines to pick up.
And I feel so good about that. Just staying with myself and only posting on my forum and websites - staying at home. And I had been keeping an eye on the Divine Love forums, always interested in seeing what the people are talking about - which is really not much so far as the truth is concerned. But no more of that either. I understand what they are doing and not doing so far as their soul growth is concerned. For as far as I'm concerned they are just expanding their minds in their negative state with the help of the Divine Love. They are not doing their Soul-Healing. So they are not seriously wanting to look for the truth of themselves through their feelings. And if they did, they'd no longer want to be part of such forums, seeing they were not helping them get anywhere. I had hoped some people on those forums might one day realise they are not healing themselves, but I've given up on that idea too. I don't care anymore. And I don't feel it's my right or place to tell them (even if it's only in my mind, I wouldn't tell them in person) they are not doing what they think they are doing. So it's also not my place to be a silent observer of them, I no longer want to interfere even by a silent guest on their forums. Na, I've had enough of all of that, of looking at anything else on the net that anyone is doing spiritually. I feel I understand what it's all about now, so I'm feeling very content to just get on with my own healing and growth of truth. And that's another good feeling of relief, that I don't have to know what everyone else is up to. I can just mind my own business now. So much good letting go of these things I've been bound up in! This web site averages between 10 - 20 page views a day, with spikes up to anything between 100 and 600 page views. And having no idea if such page views are real people, and as I'm feeling like writing more bits on this blog, so I will write more to myself not really expecting anyone to read any of it.
However if you are a real person and the posts don't make much sense, I'm sorry about that, but please feel free to ask me about them. I think I'm a compulsive writer and poster. I usually end up writing something almost every day. I can't help myself. Most I don't make public, I've diaries full of my chats with Mary M and Jesus, and masses of other books, and god knows if I'll ever read through them and make them public. I do wish someone would come along and like what I write and be really good at English English grammar - not American English, and offer to proof and edit my work. I beg the Mother and Father for someone. And I wish I had the ware -with-all to make money enough to pay someone to do it. But alas, money and me are mutually exclusive. Just enough to get by, and mostly with the help of the Aussie government and that's about all. The Mother and Father say one day help will come, however They say that about a lot of things so I'm not holding my breath. It's been a super big day, lots of insights and link ups, so many things slotting into place all to do with my good feelings and the big realisation which has caused them: That I don't have to teach the whole world - I don't have to teach anyone anything! And what a huge relief, I can't tell you the stress I didn't even know I was under believing that was my mission in life. And all thanks to Gran saying I should teach my brother to be as she said we should be. But he didn't want to know about it, and I didn't force him, so it's all been a fantasy - yet another one - in my head. But now it's over. I am not to teach everyone how to live the right way, and I don't have to teach anyone anything. It feels so good being let off the hook - I had to say it again! I have no idea if there's any truth to it, but I was reading the other day about how December the 16 is the big one, some sort of once in a life time astrological alignment and the true end of the Mayan beam cycle that was wrongly prophesied for 21 December last year.
Something big was supposed to happen: the long awaited massive earthquake, a significant dimensional or consciousness shift, something???? - even a false flag signalling the beginning of the end: Revelation coming true. And of course nothing in the world happened, and by all accounts another fizzier, however, something did happen, and something momentous. But nothing like what these people were expecting, because they did not know what to look for so misinterpreted the signs. And only those people who embrace their Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing will know what to look for, and they will eventually be able to see, as I can now see. But I'm sorry as I can't tell it all to ye, all apart of the drama and suspense of what really is happening behind the scenes on a spiritual level. So the Harmonic Convergence has ended, it's happened, and now onto the next stage of the Great Unfolding. It was a long and hard 25 years. I'm so happy! Finally two whole days of feeling good! Seventeen years of feeling mostly bad, and now I have two good feeling days! Yippee! I FEEL SO GOOD, I FEEL SO GOOD! I'm singing inside me with good feelings. Anymore and I'll be delirious with good feelings.
And why? Because I'd done it. I've finally competed the task I set out to do 25 years ago. I know what it's all about. I know how we live and how we can fix ourselves. I'm still not fully healed yet, but at least I know the way. So I no longer have to keep looking and investigating and thinking about it all. I feel a peace descending upon me - or rather, coming up within me. I can rest in the knowledge that all we are, all we do, including all our spiritual and religious practices are all only within our negative, evil and rebellious state. And although they all contain some truths, still none of them contain the way out of our yuk. So participating in them is only going around and around within the mess. And unless one does ones Feeling-Healing or Soul-Healing, there is no way out of it. And in celebration I've changed the background image. A bit of a fresher feeling! In keeping with my good feeling!!! I've added a new page - Briefly: how do you do your healing?
Hopefully it will be enough to give you an idea of what the healing involves, the basic principles that is. I don't think anyone could give a true idea of all that ones healing is. It's the sort of thing - that has to be experienced, as corny as that it so say. But it's true. There is simply too much to it. Q/A about spiritual things and other matters; and how they relate to DLS and your healing.12/8/2013
I've added a new page, see under Soul-Healing.
I've answered questions in relation to DLS and ones Soul-Healing that people have asked on other spiritual forums I've been reading. Such as: Can crystals help you with your healing and spiritual growth; can alternative healing modalities help you; Does the Bible contain any real truth or spiritual value; How do I give up attachments and addictions like masturbation and drinking; Should I try and live like Jesus does, and other questions. Today I feel very miserable. It's been years now of doing my healing - so many bad feelings. I'd never have guessed how many bad feelings I'd repressed inside myself. And it's all too hard to keep feeling them, trying to express them and long for their truth. Today I wish I could just cease to exist so all the pain would go away, and so many days have I felt like this. If you are considering doing your feeling- or soul-healing, I just want to tell you, it's very hard. What more can I say.
As I think about all that I'm presenting Divine Love Spirituality to be, it appeals to me to see it as a contrarian spirituality. It's certainly going against the flow, against what is considered normal by the standards of existing religions and alternative belief systems.
And the alternative so-called spiritual belief systems, including those people in the 'Divine Love movement' , are for me, yes, alternatives to mainstream religion, but still they are all just different versions of the same: more self and feeling denial. DLS is completely contrarian to all of them, because it's about going the other way, back into yourself through your bad feelings to uncover the truth of your soul; it's about facing all the yuk and bad stuff that you are and not trying to use your mind to add yet more levels of belief or religious practice to block it out. So DLS might be difficult to accept, however as far as I'm concerned, it's all one has left when one has exhausted all other avenues - when one has to accept one still feels bad. I've asked my spirit helpers (the group that oversees all I do with spirits) that should there be any Divine Love mansion world spirits who are doing their healing (and any Celestial spirits) that might like to ask Mary or Jesus a question through me, to please facilitate it, so we can see what happens. It's a new experience from me and I'm enjoying it. It's good to see how Mary and Jesus answer questions other than mine, and how they are with other spirits -albeit still all being done through me. It's also, as it always is with Mary and Jesus, very insightful. It's also interesting to gain more of an understanding as to what it's like for the Divine Love spirits who are doing their healing, being able to compare what they say and how they are with my own healing.
Should you like to ask Mary and Jesus a question, and it doesn't have to only be about your healing, please feel free visit the forum and begin a new thread - you are most welcome. DLS and CR forum I've introduced a new page to DLS: God is Hate.
(It's under the subheading hating God, which is under God on the main menu. See link below.) It's a very important page, for really I feel it's where we all have to get to in uncovering the truth of our negative state. And I feel in some ways, it rounds out, and dare I say - completes - my DLS revelation. It's probably just completing one part of it, as I've thought I've completed it before. However, it all makes perfect sense, although it could be for some people I would imagine, hard to get their mind around. I will also be extensively covering the subject in my conversations with Mary and Jesus which I'll be posting in the coming weeks on the forum. God is Hate I've started a forum so as to combine and extend my websites: CR, DLS, Speaking with nature spirits, Speaking with Mary and Jesus, and Ann and Terry beginning their healing. (See links on links page.)
It's easier to add bits and pieces that come to mind all in one place. And the forum set-up I can manage - so far. Should you want to comment on anything or join the forum speaking about CR, DLS; your own healing experiences; ask questions of myself, Verna, Mary and Jesus or a Celestial spirit, please feel free to do so. I'd love to be able to discuss things with you, hearing what your feelings and thoughts are about it all. Even if they are bad ones. Forum |